He's running through my thoughts all day

I can't get him off my mind

Not to mean that I try,

I like thinking of him; he's mine.

And that's such a weird thought

because no one has ever been just mine

no one has ever wanted to stay

no one has ever wanted just me.

But he is unlike any other

and I absolutely adore him

in fact

I love him.

And he says he loves me

that I'm the best person he knows

he holds me oh so close

and I pray he never lets me go.

He is absolutely amazing,

his sunshine is blazing.

I'm surely glowing,

unafraid of my feelings showing.

I finally realize,

how that old saying can materialise:

that things fall apart,

so better things can start,

and old loves betray,

so true love will find you one day.

He's out and I'm in.

I'm good but he's sin

He makes some claims,

I got ideas that end in shame.

He would promise me whatever

...maybe even forever.

But, I sit down late at night and

I think about my whole life and

I'm not sure where he fits in it.

He says things he doesn't mean,

but they still appeal to me.

True words seem to slip,

and before I know it I'm in his grip.

He's all so comfortable with it,

he's done it before.

I want to believe there is no other,

but I'm feeling like I'm just another.

And due to heartaches of the past

my feelings will be masked.

And to ensure my defenses don't chafe,

I will be guarded till I am certain it's safe.