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~flyleaf62

today... nothing happened with S.  i believe he was absent.

his friend H, was not.

he came into my classroom for no apparent reason, and just started walking around.  i was just happy i had to leave when H was in there.  when i came back he was gone, but then 5 minutes later, he was peering into the room through the glass window on the door.  talk about a creep!

any suggestions, comments or advice would be REALLY appreciated!  thnx!

~flyleaf62

thats another thing...

i cant gauge if i like S or W.

S i used to like, but i dont know why: hes ugly and annoying and a showoff.

W i never used to like, though he mightve liked me 5 years ago.  he's ugly-ish, i guess, but hes annoying me now, so i cant tell if i used to like his personality or not.

this is new territory for me.  i can usually tell from first sight or first conversation that i like the boy or not, but i cant tell.  im pretty sure that i dont like either of them, but theyre just so hard for me to gauge for some reason.

any suggestions or comments or advice on a way i could find out if i actually like them or not or about anything concerning my situation would be REALLY appreciated.  thnx!

~flyleaf62

i just realized something...

all my troubles started out 5 years ago.

i think i know why though, i had been homeschooled up to that point. not knowing how an actual school system works, i probably set myself for drama that i would end up encountering in later life.

i mean, i never intended to see S again, and i DEFINATELY never intended to ever tell him i liked him... ever.

W, on the other hand, i expected to see.  his brother and my sister both went to the school im in now, and my sister used to like his brother. maybe he thinks that its the same thing with a new generation, but im pretty sure thats not the case.

so today, some more things happened with S and W... at the same time.

i was going from one class to the other, and the one i was going to was with my whole grade.  so iwas trying to remember the best route to avoid W, and i ended up going the wrong way.  thank goodness he wasnt there though.

so i went down the stairs... and i was right behind W and his friend.  so me and my friend, who ill call D, were trying to be quiet and walk behind him, but not fight behind so that he wouldn't see us.  he turned to the other side, giving us a clear opening, so we ran down the hall, but had to stop cuz my bag fell off my shoulder and my shoe was untied.  so i saw W approaching fast, so i started to run again... but i saw S approaching.  i was literally sandwiched in between the two guys i really didnt want to see.  my friend decided that shed rather go past S than W because S doesnt know her.  so i cursed her out after we were a clear distance past S.

so then, it was really slow going into the room, and W caught up to me.  now, i ususally wouldnt care, we were good friends before, but i care now.  he started tapping me on the shoulder and telling me things i didnt care about.  my friend id a witness, he tapped me at least 5 times! and some of them were longer than a tap, but thats how im gonna explain it.

i also ran into S like, 3 other times today, but they were minor and nothing really happened because i tried to keep my face concealed.

any comments, advice or suggestions about what i should do would be REALLY appreciated! thnx!

~flyleaf62

 

the next topic of my life is a boy ill refer to as W, his initial.

so 5 years ago, he was in my class and he may or may not have liked me, idk.  my sister liked his brother thogh and me and W are good friends.

now, he wasnt even a problem, he was just annoying because he saw a paper that had his name on it and he wanted to know why. i dont even remember what the paper said, so i refuse to answer him because im not even sure of the answer myself. 

last tuesday, he had a skull keychain that would sneeze air at you if you squeezed it.  he decided he was going to make it sneeze in my face, so that annoyed me and i got it out of his hand and picked it up.  i held it up in my fist, and he decided he was going to clap my hand and just keep his hands on mine. idek if he was trying to even get the keychain out, i just know that it surprised me and i kinda let my grip slip and i think i gave him a face, but idk.

so today was just plain out weird.  ive been trying to avoid seeing him since, but i couldnt avoid him today cuz i was trying to go to my homeroom in the morning when the following encounter happened.  he ws walking by me and he put his hand on my shoulder while he was telling me something i didnt even hear.  and once again, he didnt even just tap, it, it was on there for at least 2 seconds.

any suggestions or comments concerning any advice would be REALLY appreciated. thnx

~flyleaf62

first off, before anything, the main person in this entry is going to be reffered to as S, his first intial.

ok, so about 5 years ago, i used to like him, but so did my best friend, so i never told him anything about it and he didnt know... until 2 years ago.

i lost touch with S for 3 years because i moved to a different school, but 2 years ago, we were put in the same school again, and one of my friends from the school he wasnt in was in his class, so i was just like, what the heck, lets tell her.  but she decided to tell him... and he remembered me.

so my thought process was just, ok, stay away from him today, and hell forget by tomorrow... he didnt.

i try to hide from him because he gives me this nasty stupid joker smile every time i see him now, and it makes me wanna punch him in the face.  that annoys me so much though because we were good friends before and its not even like i think i like him now.

any suggestions or comments telling me what i should do would be REALLY appreciated. thnx

~flyleaf62

i dont like sharing my life to so many people, but i need to vent and i need advice, so you guys ready?