what it'd be like to catch a star from afar? It might be warm enough to lighten your heart and shine through your overcast mind. Or maybe it could burn right through your soul to leave you with the crusts to formulate an improved perception. Perhaps we need only to imagine an act of capturing this fiery astronomical substance in order to cope, surrender, relax, accept and propel forward through life's journey. Just imagine its light generating a vast amount of energy that could pursue you to believe in a positive progressive essence. Rise to the dawn and seize the day, my loved ones. Take care, take care.

if I could... Hmm.

all my dreams crowd my head. Not the kind with futures. The ones with abnormalities and irregular happenings. These kinds put you in situations that leave you with either content, disappointment, horror, or deep confusion. Sometimes when you need strength it is lost in your thickly liquid movements so that you cannot even lift your head. Something always seems to prevent you from impact with the ground, or completing your search, or even fighting to protect. That barrier is always there. The quest is to discover the the ideal mind power to develop these visions with full potential. Hmm, just a thought... dreams are fascinating.

I cannot concentrate and complete (well, actually even start) any of my homework!! Shoot, I hate how I always delay... But listening to music is so much more interesting! Hum-dee-dum :)

Ever since the weather has cleared up (become less cloudy and warmer), I've been in a better mood. I am even on my monthly womanly gift, and my mood hasn't taken a toll this week =D Maybe I am getting better. I've been laughing a lot more lately, at work, at school, and at home. I want to hold onto these happy feelings. It's great to feel this way. People at work and my family are noticing the happier me. I want to keep it this way... I think a lot of it had to do with the music I was listening to. Not that what I was listening to was bad music, it is amazing music, absolutely. It's just it affected my thoughts and mood dramatically. I was listening to more Linkin Park, Fly Leaf, Bullet for My Valentine- basically music that has a lot of pain, because I felt I could totally relate to the lyrics. Especially Linkin Park's "Don't Stay," "From the Inside," and "Somewhere I Belong,". They are amazing songs, but they just continued to make me sad :( Once I steered away from those songs, I began listening to a lot of my old upbeat music, like: Regina Spektor, Mika, Streetlight Manifesto, Vanessa Carlton, Dave Matthews Band, Dance Hall Crashers, Steel Train, Broken Bells, Stars, FEEL, etc. And I got new music (new to me): Of Monsters and Men, Sheerwater, Beirut and fun.! Also, I've been trying to run whenever I can. It REALLY helps my mood. I've known that it does, but I just don't have the right time for it in my schedule (I like to run when the sun is out). I think that is why I always put it off. Well, I put everything off. Right now I'm watching music videos on youtube instead of writing my 3 papers, 4 discussions (which are all due tonight) and studying for my exam for tomorrow morning. Never mind all the reading I have to do too. Ugh. This CalstateUniversity is much harder than I thought it was going to be. Wait, why would I think it'd be easier than the junior college I was at before? Haha, uuuhhh.... =P Anyways, enough about me... how is everyone's Sunday going so far? =)