no matter how much you hate me!!!

alright ill admit to being a bitch but it saddens me that this friendship ended just cuz i was being a word come on was it that bad i could of said so much worse and could of you i know krystal hates me for some reason although im un sure of why i dont care i really had begun to thought you were different a true friend however i guess i just dont have any i dont blame myself because i didnt change nor end the so called friendships sooo i blame the haters if you only knew wat i had been going through and wat i go through everyday now tht im back with my dad i wish he would stop hitting me but i never get want i want you see i want my "friends " back but its not happenin because of some stupid thing i said its sooo dumb and so am i for even trying i noe you dnt get on here now but some part of me wishes you would why cant you people talk to me about it i have tried to change for you but nothing i do is good enough soo ive given up now im forced to ask myself why am i even trying to reason with you after all ive been through... the fainting spells have returned... all thx to the new amount of stress you have put me through... i hope i die thx to this have a nice life woithout me since everyone seems to like it better that way... this is my farwell!

i give up on this world the lies of this life take me away to a better day!

i wish the torture would end i have no friends no choice but to sit and defend myself from the aching pain of vemonous words that kill me inside but i cannot hide its not the time for me to die so i sit inside my mind and ride...

there is a huge weight on my shoulders and i need someone to relieve me of the load.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO SHUT ME UP and make me hip like a badass I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO KNOCK ME UP IN A MINUTE MINUTE IN A FUCKING MINUTE

i feel like im dying maybe if im lucky i will be...

WHERES MY MOTHER

i miss my little who

bout to go home cuz i give up on school today i feel sick to my stomach and i give up