Ok, this is gonna sound a little weird. Most have that 'someone' or 'someones' they can talk to, right? Well when they're asleep or just busy in general and you can't talk to them, well, i don't know about you but i get pretty lost. Though what i wanna ask is, is texting yourself weird? I know it's bizarre but i desperately needed to talk to him. Or, well, one of my 'someones', *ahem*... plus i was bored anyway, and i came up with the idea of seeing if texting myself worked. And it did! So... I did. Is it crazy to do things like that in that position or is it normal?

Aw jeez, it's been so crazy here. Like, uber mad! Had so much to do, plus birthday plans! I dunno if i said mum was planning to take me out for my birthday. If i didn't... Mum's planning to take me out for my birthday!! Well, the day after coz whatever it is is closed on my birthday. Typical :| I lost more weight :) But yesterday i ate two meals. I felt so awful :( what's even worse, mum took me to the doctors to get my food problem sorted out. I'm having some blood tests in a few weeks then the doctor's gonna refer us somewhere where i can talk to someone and blah blah. Like i want to advertise it like that. I don't want to tell people about it. Only my two friends and by big brother know about it. I trust them with it totally. I'm still trying to tell mum more about it but i'm getting there. But that's it. I don't wanna keep talking about it. It's ridiculous, just a big joke. Erm, what else has happened... oh yeah. That horoscope thing was a waste of my battery life and thumb-tapping. They didn't even know what year i was born in so that was pointless. It's so weird being back! If there's anything else i've missed then i'll try and remember. Try haha.

I'm watching Pinoke right now! Though i wish Donald was in it :( I just had a bowl of oats. It was so nice. I might just have another. Then cry later because i regret those extra calories. I'm coming clean; i've stopped eating again. Stopped working out too. Though i might just start that again next week. I went out today and i was complimented that i had a skinny waist :) fyi, it's skinnier than when she last saw it. But i felt really nice and skinny for once. Then when i got home i decided to try on a couple of summer dresses that showed a few lumps and bumps last year. They fit ok. It wasn't an amazing gasp moment but it was ok. Then i saw myself in the mirror. Oh jeez, i sank right back down. I'm so fat and huge :( i should look great and have the most awesomest pair of long legs ever, but i don't. I guess from all the weight i have lost yeah i have come a really long way. I really don't have that far to go for my "ideal" weight. But i feel comfortable at this weight. I just wish i looked better... What do you think i should do? Should i lose another 10lbs or should i stay as i am? I wouldn't know how i would feel if i lost the weight until i did it but i feel i would lose a part of myself, if that makes sense. But maybe i think that because i've been huge all my life till now. But yeah, should i go for another 10lbs or stay as i am for a while? PLEASE HELP!!!

Ok. So yesterday i actually submitted a thingy to get my horoscope/astrology reading thingy for my life this year. Seven months MAYBE just a TAD too late but it only takes a second for something to happen, right? I would really like to know what'll happen with my love life and my career life. Or lack of one :| it'd be nice to know if i was able to get a little job. It'd put my nerves at ease at least. But yeah, it's gonna be fun! And it was freeeee! I'll let you know my results when i get them! I have no idea about anything that's going on by the way, if you haven't noticed. I'm just impatient lol. All yesterday i was trying to work out all these riddles i somehow found on YouTube. Dunno where they came from! They was pretty cool. Here's one, see if anyone can get it: I know a word of letters three, add two, and fewer there will be. That should keep you on your toes for a second or two haha. Ooh, which reminds me! I forgot to give the answer of the riddle to my friend! I'll remember when he wakes up. Unless i forget lol. Ok, brekkie time for me!