just let me have my 5 minutes of pretend happiness. I'm not a complete fucking idiot.

but believe me, I have tried. I know this is foolishness. But words I hope are meant for me still make me smile or close my eyes and imagine you are so close that I can feel you breathing. There is some hidden part of us that resonates when we are near each other. Maybe it's only in my mind. But it feels real to me.