It is without a DOUBT Switchfoot Day. It started with On Fire playing in the back of my mind. "I'm standing on the edge of me. I'm standing on the edge of me. I'm standing on the edge of everything I've never been before. And I'm standing on the edge of me. I'm standing on the edge." And I'm thinking. Wait a second. Standing on the edge of everything I've never been before. Now, hold on, I've been a lot of things before. And I have sure, sure been at the edge of myself before. So how am I standing here, facing this canyon, on the edge of myself, staring down everything I've never been before? But that's the thing. When you're there with God, you're on fire. And when you're on fire, you can only do two things. Fire will not just stay one steady flame. It flickers and moves. So when you're on fire, you can ONLY either let it go out or let it grow. And when you're standing on the edge of yourself, you have to decide. Do I fall? Do I surrender? Do I let this fire grow until it consumes me? Or do I simply step away and let it go out? But here's the special thing about Switchfoot and this song. They're standing at the edge of themselves, making this decision, and they can see everything that they've been. But then... They can see everything that they've never been before, too. And that makes a difference. And that difference calls you to take giant strides forward and just jump. Get off of the edge of yourself and into the unknown. Delve into all of these things that you've never been before. Go. Because you're on fire burning at these mysteries. Satisfy your flame's hunger. Feed it with these mysteries. Just go. That's all you can do. It's at this point that I realize I should drown in Switchfoot's music today. And so I look up Beautiful Letdown. "It was a beautiful let down When you found me here Yeah for once in a rare blue moon I see everything clear I'll be a beautiful let down That's what I'll forever be And though it may cost my soul I'll sing for free We're still chasin our tails and the rising sun And our dark water planet's Still spinning in a race Where no one wins and no one's one" And I'm stopped once again. "Though it may cost my soul, I'll sing for free." At first, I'm confused. This brings me back to TobyMac's Lose My Soul. "I don't wanna gain the whole world and lose my soul." But that doesn't appear to be what this song is talking about. Not at all. So I think about it. And I realize that while, yes, you can lose your soul to the world or to the devil, whichever, you can also give it to God. In the words of Micheal Gungor, "I am not my own. I'm Yours alone." So. Though giving yourself away is a necessary sacrifice, you will do so freely, because you don't belong here. You don't belong in this race "where no one wins and no one's one." This is where I'm stopped once again. Twice in one verse. "Where no one wins and no one's one." My friends and I. My youth group. We're all about unity. In this world, it's obvious that there are no winners. The only thing you can do once you reach the top is hit rock bottom. The "top" really only holds lonliness and countless voids with no remedy to fill them. Only those who know that they don't belong ever truly find peace in this world. But trying to reach the top is always an agenda. Do you know why the world will never acheive world peace? Because no one can win. And no one's one. It's a race. You're trying to win. You won't, but you're trying. How can you unify yourself with your opponents. Perhaps you'll team up with a couple of them in an attack against another. But you're still attacking someone else. In this race, it is not POSSIBLE for the world to be one. Open your eyes. You don't belong here. If you only realize that you don't belong here, you can step out of the race and be one with others who have seen the light. Drop your foolish pride, and just BE a letdown. Join the church of the dropouts and the losers. You don't belong. Switchfoot day isn't over yet. We'll see how it goes from here. But it is NOT over yet. Already I've been standing on the edge of myself and realized that I don't belong. I'm sensing a theme here. Time to move.