Life is okay. I'm kinda in a weird mood right now, somewhere betwwen an emotional breakdown and extreme happiness. I can't wait for the zombie apocolypse to happen, just so that things will change a lil bit. Until it does though, I'll be listening to music, enjoying the moments I have with my loved ones before the zombie strain hits this area. I believe the strain will be here sooner than most of us think. There have been more outbreaks, of course off the records all around the country. The government is doing what they can to try to contain it, but their efforts are useless. Soon, the zombie strain will be an epedemic. And I'll be ready with my shotgun XD

Last night was bad. Long story short, I have bad grades which made my mom freak out, getting my dad upset aswell. My dad told me he loves me because I am his son, but neither he or my mom like me. And if I don't improve the way I act, then he will send me to a military school just so that they can not be stressed by how terrible I am. I know he wouldn't send me to a military school, and considering he checked on me every half hour last night, I know he does care about me and wants me home... But I can't help but feel like I'm not wanted. I can't even remeber the last time he was there for me when I thought it was important, or the last time I felt I could talk to him about anything... The night ended for me with tears as I closed my eyes waiting for sleep...

When will this sweet music that I embrace end? When will this melody that has always played fade away into nothing? When will this record that plays the song of my life turn to dust as if it never existed? I know not how the music will continue on, and I know not the length of this album. But I will enjoy the music as long as it lasts. I will cherish this record as long as it is still here to play for me. I know there will be scratches that ruin some songs, but that is the way of it, and I will enjoy it anyway. And though I may tire of the same old music, I will always love it. Because if I don't, no one will.

So, life is going as it should I guess... But it is hard about right now. I am stuck somewhere between wanting to hide in the past while I run from the past, and looking to the future with hope, but then turning away with fear. So I am completely stuck in the present. And I don't really like it here. There is so much fear, so much pain, so much uncertainty and no security. I am conflicted with thoughts, and even stronger feelings, that do not work together, and I am lost.