Okay, so today was prety awesome. I woke up nice and late, and had a good breakfast and stuff. Then I went to Canal Walk with my family and I got the coolest magazine known to humanity!!! It was a Pink Floyd magazine (created by the magazine Uncut) and it's just the coolest thing ever!!!! I love it!!! I didn't let anyone touch it, and then Emily decided to touch it and it just reminded me off how much I hate her dumb ass. Then we came home and stuff, and got showered and changed for the concert. We were going to go to Primi for supper, but there was a long wait and besides, I saw Ron there anyway. So instead we went to Calcaccios and it was awesome there. Then we left and went to Grand West which was where we quickly sat down for the concert. I will admit, I didn't want to go at first because I hardly knew any Johnny Clegg songs, but it truly was one amazing concert. I lived how they were playing The Police while we were waiting for Johnny Clegg (who was surprisingly only about 10-15 minutes late). There was this really cool guy sitting next to Emily, and he was soooo awesome! He reminded me of Nathaniel from the Soloist because I could just see how much this guy loved music. That just proves my point about how amazingly awesome music is, and how it can completely change a person. Nelson Mandela said it himself too. Anyway, the concert was great and I had an aamzing day. It's my granny's birthday tomorrow, so I best be off. Crap. I still have a project to do for Friday... Oh well..

I feel so depressed about this guitar thing. Johnathan can play guitar really well, like solos and all, and he has been playing for a year. I have been playing for two years and I can't do any of that. I mean, I don't go to lessons like he does, but sill. It's not that I can't stand the fact that someone is better than me at guitar, it's just that I feel like I have nothing that I'm good at. You see, I have family and friends to turn to when I get upset, but I often don't like to talk to people when I'm upset. A lot of people just need space, and when they need space they usually turn to what they have a passion for. My passion is music, and sure I could sit there and listen to music, but what is the point in being obsessed with music if you can't do anything about it? I love guitar, I love it to death! It makes me feel so free and stuff. But it's not fulfilling if I'm crappy at it. And then here comes Johnathan being all brilliant and stuff, and makes me feel like a complete failure. I am just feeling really upset about it. Whatever, I don't think I should be complaining about this stuff. It sounds stupid. Well, the cycle test today was boring. It's okay though, I just hope I passed, That's all that really counts. I mean, sure, I want to get a good mark but there's only so much I can do. URGH I hate being tired at this time of night (n) !!!! (9:52) I'm actually learning a new song right now.. IT's cool but not as good as him. Oh well, best be off. nighty night.

LOL! I was reading over my replies from the last time I wrote, and moonshadowbird396 , I realise how stupid I sound!!! But I was happy? What can I say :P Heheheeee :) Anyway, today wasn't bad either. I had a nice conversation with David again, (an actual one this time :P) but I think I almost made him fall down the stairs... hehee, my bad. Anywho, Mrs Cook doens't seem to be noticing my fringe, which is awesome. I truly do hate her with a passion. Oh well, I have Pink Floyd to keep me company :) (y) I'm pretty tired, but I'm not in the mood to go to sleep. Besides, I'm busy listening to Pink Floyd, and i don't want to be interrupted. We had creative writing today, and I had just made up a poem about a person who is icolated from the rest of the world (I was thiknking about Pink Floyd at the time) and I was really embarrased when the teacher asked me; Is this what you are feeling right now? LOL I just got insulted (joking obviously) by someone tellin me my great great great grandmother looked like a cupcake :D ROFL!!!!! Anywho, I don't ave much else to write, so I best be off. Nighty night.

My dream last night: I can’t really remember all the little details of it, but I do know that the parts I really can remember all had JaF in them. I know that we were a couple, and I know that I had really liked him, and he was acting like her really liked me too. It was very weird, and he doesn’t mean anything to me in real life, but it just keeps making want a boyfriend all the more. And I don’t blame the boys for not wanting to be my boyfriend, but it would be nice to just have someone. (sigh) Oh yeah, and at the end part I was in the bathroom and I was sort of having a little chat with the janitor, and she was telling me about Kna and how he came into a classroom and asked if she was the cleaning lady, and then she said yes, and then he said, “Well I think they should get more dentists in here”. I don’t know what that part means but it was very weird. I was thinking about yesterday at Kayla's batti. I keep remembering the things I know will probably not happen for a very long time. I really loved how I got so many hugs. One in the morning by SS, another in the night by Jared Berm, two from Kayla, one from Storme, one from Liat and one attempted one from David Her. I also really liked the little "conversation type thing" that I had with, NoMaz. I was dancing to TNT by ACDC in a little "group thing" and NoMaz was in his little "group" next to me. And he had by mistake stood on my foot, and we had both made such a big fuss out of it. He was like: "I'm sorry!!!" and I was like "Omg, I'm so sorry" And then after saying sorry numeral times, he was like: "Are you okay?!" He is very nice :) LOL Fish likes him ROFL!!!! I also had my little chat thing with David Her. which was nice. Anyway, today I finally finished my project. It's not so good, but it's okay for something that was finished the day before it was due. Crap. I still have my Jewish Studies project for like 2 weeks time, and theres a lot of work I have to do on it. Oh well. I best be going to bed now. I mean, I would be going to sleep in about two hours time if it were the weekend, but nooo it has to be Sunday night '_' Well, good night, I will be thinking and stuff.

Tonight (last night) was great. I had a lot of fun at Kayla's batti, it was great. I am no longer going to the Pink Floyd Experience, but Iam going to this thing that is coming to where I live. It's the same thing, but it's more to do with Syd Barret which is so completely aesome. I love Syd Barret! It was great tonight because my speech went well and this morning was great too. Well, it was okay. J spoke to me, but I was really ugly this mornigng, Then tonight David Her. was speaking to me, and it was cool as well. Yesterday was also really great. We went to Jason Raw. for supper because it had been shul that night as well, so that was fun too. I still have my project to do. I hope it all goes well, I don't mind not getting such a good mark, I don't deserve one. Anyway, I don't have much else to say, so... good night.

Well, first I would just like to pay my respects to Elvis Presley, who died on the 16 August 1977. RIP Elvis, you truly were an amazing artist. I would also like to say happy birthday to madonna. Even though she turned out to be just like one of the modern ones, there were actually some good songs that she had created. Now on to my problem for today. I have once again witnessed the hating of me today. I am honestly just such a bitch. I hate it so much. Why can't I just be nice, or if I can't be nice let me at least be quiet about all of my rude comments. I know they think I'm rude. Or stupid or try and get attention by always being quiet and upset. Well, I don't care. I just didn't think I would turn out to be the most hated girl in the grade (probably). I am also extremely behind on my work. I have all these projects and orals due, and I haven't even started them yet. Evetyone is so ahead of me, and it sure does suck. I was writing about my dad today in creative writing. I think I now take back all I said though. He doesn't seem to like me anymore, him and everyone else in my family. (sigh) I just hate how I am so hateable. I hate everyone. Except for some people. URGH! I don't blame them for hating me. I even hate me. I don't even think my music is helping me right now. Oh well. It sure does suck. I love the fact that I'm going to The Pink Floyd Experience, but I have to go with my mom, who I hate with a passion. Whatever, I don't care what she says, I'm not going to be sociable because I never am so why should I change now just for her? I best be off. I don't have much else to say excpet for the fact that people hate me. Good night, all haters of me.

Well, today was crap. I think the highlight of myd ay was getting an Archie comic. I woke up nice and late though, well, sort of. Had a good breakfast. And then i went to Canal Walk, and then I cam eback and spent the rest of the day at home, watching that 70's Show. I had toast for supper... I have spent my night so far trying to concentrate on That 70's SHow while my mom was shouting at my dad because she was cold... Oh and I have been crying my eyes out to songs that that are so good they make me cry because everyone has been having an amazing night and Brendans barmi and I wasn't even invited. When I told people I wasn't invited tehy all acted surprised, and why shouldn't they? Me and Brendan are supposed to be friends. Whatever. I still have my cat to keep me company. Wow that is actually very sad... URGH I still have os much work to do. It sucks. I hate myself. I'm reading people's statuses, and they all seem tohave had an amazing time at Brendan's barmi. I am so upset, I just feel like going to sleep, waking up at 10:00 AM and lying in bed until 11:00 AM! Apparently there was a comedian. :'( It's cool, I have Led Zeppelin now. Tey always seem to make me feel a little better with thei musical genius. I don't have much else to say about today because it was so depressing.

Okay, well what made me so upset today was the fact that Brendan didn't invite me to his barmitzvah, which is weird because we are quite good friend. He sent out a lot of invitations very very late, like a two days before, but I still havent gotten one yet and it's tomorrow. I just don't understand. Maybe I was right all this time, maybe everyone just does hat eme. (sigh) Oh well, there's not much I can do about it. Yesterday wasn't bad though, Gen made me tie my hair up in a high ponytail so everyone got to see me like that. It didn't look that good though, but the hip-hop lesson I had was amazing. It was just so much fun, we are doing such a cool dance. Anyway, so today David spoke to me, which is weird because he hardly ever speaks to me, but it was very nice of him. I miss talking to my good ol Highlands friends. Excpet for Brendan now :(. I just hate that I'm missiong out, I thought we were friends, and everyone is going to be there having an amazing time except for me. I told Isabel, she asked if she shouldn't go but I said she wa sjut being silly and the she should definitely go. Well, at leats I had a good friday night supper with my family at granny and grandpas. I was with Kayla and Jemma and Ruth,and we hd an amazing time. On the way home from there, some person almost had an accedent with y mom (my sisters and I went with my dad in a different car) and she said that she actually could hav e been killed. I feel so guilty for wondering how nice taht would have been. I didn't need her to die, just to be injured or something, it didn't even have to be big. I just haven't been feeling too great today. Well, I just hnope that Mark Knopfler had an amazing birthday. He truly is a musical genius, he sure does amaze me. I particularly love the song You and Your Friend, which was when he was in Dire Straits. I celebrated today by only listening to his music, well until after school. Still, for most of the day. I have so much work to do, and I'm only reallly worried about the geography project. Work annoys me to death. (sigh) I don't have much else news, so I best be off to bed, probably a few tears will drop.

Well, I found out yesterday that it has now been confirmed that my friends parents are not getting divorced. It's good to know, but... Hmm whatever. Why is it that her parents got to go through something like that :( Why not mine? When they found out about it they said: We will never get divorced. URGH! Well, I found out about this one album that I have really been enjoying over teh past few days. The Pros And Cons Of Hitch Hiking. It truly is an amazing album. When we went to take Ruth to this one party today, my mom and Emily went to this one shop next door to where it was, and while they went there, my dad took me tothis one shop, and it was so amazing. It w filled with all these records of all the great rock bands I love. Okay, so it didn't have all of them, but it had some of them ,and that's good enoug for me. It was really cool. Anyway, so we went to visit granny and grandpa today, they have recently moved here and their apartment they are living in is quite coo. Anyway so we went to go for a walk there today with them, and it was quite fun. It was really cool yesterday and the day before because I was talking to Jarret. It was cool, I like speaking to him, it's fun. Anyway, on Monday we are practically the only school that isn't having the day off, which sucks but I'll manage. It's all good. Everyone has gone away for this weekend and it just keeps reminding me of how much I want to go to Joburg for The Pink Floyd Experience. We went to Canal Walk today to have lunch and I asked dad if he was speakig to mom about it, and he said taht he was but he hasn't made a decision about it. Every time I bring it up, my sisters are always saying: We are not going to Joburg so stop asking!. They always think they know everything and they they are so clever, but really their unnecessary comments are just stupid and bitchy. It all started with Emily but Ruth catches on to them quickly because she practically worships Emily. Whatever. Anywho, today I was looking at someones profile picture on the Blackberry, and it just reminded me of the situation with DB. It said: I like you okay, and I know it's stupid and I know you don't care. That was what the thing said when he showed me, URGH! I just started feeling terrible at that moment. And last night I started, once again, feeling terrible aobut what happened with me and J at joshs barmi. I was even about to send a broadcast to everyone saying sorry about anything I have ever done to make them feel bad. I should probably still do it. (sigh), everyone should hate me. Well, I best be off, I mean, I don't have anything else to write. So bye.

Today was okay, nothing out of the ordianry or special happened. But we did win our netball match (20-1) So around two days ago, I was on Twitter and I read something about Pink Floyd. I read that there was this band who has "earned" their reputation for playing Pink Floyd songs, it sounds very similar and is played with the same amount of passion as Pink Floyd. They are playing a show in Joburg (a city practically next door to mine) and I have been begging my parents to let me go. They haven't told me anything to do with yet, but hopefully they say yes. I can go on like, the weekend or something, there will be enough time for me to go there and be back in time for school! It's such a perfect idea and I really want to go!!! (sigh) I guess I just have to wait and see what my porents say about it.