So I feel a bit better than I have been. Tired, thanks to the 4 pills I'm on, but happy, because my ipod is constantly in my head. Without music, I'd die. I'm sitting here in my first period class, bored as fuck. D: God help me lol.

I am so sick of hearing voices in my head..it's driving me crazy!! I keep seeing things, hearing people who aren't there call my name..and my clozapine ain't helping. I'm sick of having a conversation with someone, only to realize from the expression on other peoples' faces that the person isn't really there. It makes me so upset, and lonely and lost. Am I the only one feeling like this? Or are there others? I know I am not the only one with schizophrenia, but I'd enjoy it if I could get more help for it. I'm going to sign myself into Hampton Behavioral Health Center. My whore of a mother won't do it for me /: This website, the song lyrics, always help me. Somehow, I read Death Cab For Cutie lyrics and my whole world goes upside down. It makes me happy, helps me forget the pain I keep going through endlessly. My self-harm, hallucinations, and laughing at the wrong times all seem to disappear when I read the lyrics. I am so thankful for this website...