So yes, I think that to a certain extent I do like you...but the truth is...I am scared to let myself be so vulnerable,so open to another person. I mean what if I let myself go and you don't meet me halfway? What if it's not what I am expecting, because nothing ever works out the way I plan it to do so. I don't want to get hurt, but I don't think that is the part that scares me the most...it's that what if I am unable to feel or get hurt? What if I have made my heart too hard?? I don't want to go through this again...because I am sure that it's going to be your heart that gets broken...and I don't want to have to apologize for the things that I can control anymore...I have done that too many times already. :(

So isn't it rather strange when so called 'friends' basically stab you in the back? I mean here we are all nice and friendly on our merry way to the Acoustic Christmas,and personally I thought that we had an amazing time. All of the bands were freaking amazing and even the trip home went fine, I thought. However, I must have mistaken when I thought you could actually keep a secret. I mean first of all you are dating the guy that I liked, and you didn't like him until I did, but I accepted the fact that he liked you and not me and I managed to swallow the jealousy and move on. You however, with your numerous faces, love to stir up trouble and twist up words only to spew them back out in some multilated,deformed way to make yourself seem like the bigger person.You need to grow the fuck up and realize that drama should have ended in elementary school and no one wants to hear what liars have to say. How can you call yourself my friend if you are only going to begin disecting everything that I do or say the very minute I am out of earshot? Man,that felt good to get off of my chest. :)