well i had a nice winter break and i shouldn't bitch. but my cat took a shit in my closet and now i'm really sleepy. also, i'm very immature and all i ate today was mexican food. and the old man with the milky eye from james and the giant peach died today WHAT is up with that people die but i'm getting to the age where it's much more likely it will be someone i know

School tomorrow so I should sleep but... anyways, it seems that it's very silly to trust people, particularly friends. They usually fuck you over the most oh boo hiss... such drama from a child... the whole being single thing doesn't bother me so much as the i can go for weeks without anyone wondering where i am thing. excluding my mom. and i wonder if i'm being over dramatic or attention-whoring, which i probably am, but why is wanting attention so disgusting? I've been applying for college and now i'm very anxious. I've developed a tremor in my left hand and i feel like an old lady. i can scarcely walk to my room with a cup of coffee without spilling it all over my hands. and my grandma is full of bullshit.