the cuffer prize short list came out this weekend. i was not on it . that means i did not make the top ten. a crushing blow for sure. a part of me said that it was only the first contest i entered and there will be other contests the other part of me cried all day. i don't know what part to listen to. rejection is really hard for my all ready low self esteem. i don't know if i want to be a writer bad enough to go through that amount of pain. but then again not writing would be like not breathing. may be i will write and keep it for myself. not enter any more contests we will see

lately i have been depressed. but i still have hope that things will get better. someday things would work out for me. it is all ready getting better for my hubby last night he sold a painting for 500 dollars. when he was my age he was just like me and he made it so maybe i will make it too. so maybe someday instead of reading my words here you can read my words in a book well here's hoping

there is one disturbing trend that i have come across lately and it bugs the heck out of me. that is when you are playing a video game and all of a sudden it says to be continued ... no one like these dreaded words when they used them on old TV shows, why in the heck would they think that we would like them in our computer games. not that i personally buy any of the computer games i play... why bother when i can usually finish them in one session and they usually give you two free sessions, but if i did buy them i would be awful pissed having bought a game and then finding out that in order to finish it i would have to buy another game . is it just me or do this seem like a Hugh rip-off.but that seems to be a growing trend lately every movie has to set up for the next. every show has a continuing story line and every computer game is to be continued.it makes me feel uneasy. like nothing is ever finished this is one trend i hope stops soon . well thanks for reading as a great man once said give peace a chance

i don't think i am getting it . i May be missing something because I'm a old fart or something like that . i just don't understand people who go to songs on YouTube and then complain at length how they hate the song... if you hate the song why did you look it up for in the first place. didn't you know that you hated it before you looked it up? and if you didn't know you didn't like it why not turn it off when you did realize that you did not like it why listen to the whole song then feel the need to tell the whole world line by line why you hated it. also i don't understand people why type in stuff like 300 people missed the like button or that 300 people must be deaf and do not have any taste in music ... just because you liked something does not mean that everybody had to like it. i do not know why people think that because i like something it means the whole world has to like it too. that is what makes the world so interesting the fact that we all like different things if we all liked the same things there would be only one type of music and the world would be pretty boring. well that is all i have to say for now thanks for reading. as a great man once said live long and prosper

As the days grow darker so do I. but music helps me through it all. it say all the things i want to say but didn't know how .sometimes it helps me say things that i didn't even know i wanted to say. It works great with my hubby sometimes I'll go to him and say here listen to this song it is how i feel. or I'll say don't this song remind you of us and it brings us closer together. when i was a child\teen I wasn't aloud to listen to music, those were dark days indeed . i will never want to go back to those days. I am very thankful for the gift of music. and to end this with a misquote "if music be the food of life play on" thanks for reading

someday when i'm bright someday when your blue i'll be the light and you will be whats true someday someday someday someday i will win and someday you will too but you have got to be carefull someday catches up with you someday someday someday maybe someday won't be long or it will come when i am gone or it won't have begun because someday never comes someday someday someday