I came out to Becca last night, which went well. I think that she is still kinda weirded out by it though. But at this point, I don't care. Katie is having doubts about her girlfriend, since she met me. I want to be with her so bad. It like my first love all over again, because she is my first woman. She means so much to me. At 9:30 so told me that she really needs me right now, but I got no reply after. I figured it was because my phone was being stupid. I fixed it then received another text from her asking if I was still awake. I tried calling her, but she had shut her phone off after she didn't hear from me. I think that something happened, and either she went through with breaking up with Jenna, or Jenna broke up with her. God, I hate when she is upset. I hope she calls me first thing tomorrow morning. Going back to school tomorrow after I go to breakfast and such with my mom and aunt for her birthday. I don't want to go back to school. I just need to stay positive because the next time I am home, I will get to see Katie. I just want to hug her.

Its been 3 months since I last wrote. I have been so busy with school and volunteer work. Patrick and I am drifting apart. I've moved on from the emotional connection I felt towards him. He doesn't treat me the way he should, the way I deserve to be treated. I haven't seen him in over a week, at all. We have barely spoken. But something has happened, and this is why I am writing. I've met somebody. Honestly, I am terrified by it because it is something completely different than what I am used to. This person is smart, funny, has so many similarities to me. They go to University of Southern New Hampshire, and lives about 25 minutes away from me. What is so different about this person, is that she is a woman. I have never had feelings for a girl before, and I think that I really am starting to. I am scared.