My favorite song :) Its the cutest thing ever. Mark and I talk every day, skype every night and literally never stop. Tonight will be hard when I can't tallk/skype with him. I like him so much, but it doesn't hurt. I want to date him really badly but with him being in Texas, it would be hard, and I don't want another long distance relationship, the one with Alex was hard enough. But Mark is perfect, in all aspects for me. His appearance is debatable to other people but its just what I like. He is funny, and makes me laugh all the time, even when I am really upset when nobody else can. He talks to me all the time, and doesn't think it's annoying, he likes it. I have to work til 4 this afternoon, then Sam is going to meet me at the mall so we can shop for some dresses for our clubbin' spree tonight. I am really excited about it. Boston/ Worcester/ Lowell, watch out baby, we are coming. Your perfect for me. :)

I went to a club tonight with Sam. She and I had a really good convorsation on the way home. She told me why she was in the hospital, and the things that went on in her life which resulted in this. I could relate fully, which made me sort of happy. She related to my issues as well. It makes me feel really good, and I am happy that this happened.

So I am happy again, maybe it was just a one day kinda deal for being sad. I am looking to find something to do in the Bosotn area on New Years Eve! Me, Becca, Sam, and her friend want to hang out and go to a party or a club and just dance our asses off :) Any ideas?

Something just doesn't feel right. I'm depressed for some reason. I haven't been this way in a long time. It scares me. My dad is like this, and so is my older brother. My life is literally flying by. I don't have long enough days, my mind is always wondering. I feel like I have no real place where I need to be. I don't belong here is all I know.

So Mark didn't come home. He is still in Texas, which sucks. But we talk everyday and go on skype and all that. We aren't going to date, which is alright with me as well. Today it is snowing. I hate snow. I am supposed to go to the movies with my old friend Mark today but the snow will probably ruin that. Damn. I have to work 7pm to 3am tonight too, but there is no way I can with all of this snow. Goddammit.

I got accepted to URI and I am going :) Took my army test for the scholarship. Tuesday this guy Mark comes home from college, and I am so happy. We are going to hang out and probably start dating :) Tuesday I will hang out with him and I cannot wait. He's perfect.