I got accepted to college. I cried. It was great. In addition to that, I got a 50,000 dollar scholarship to that college as well. It's Colby Sawyer College, and I love it there. Now I am just waiting on the 6 others. I met a guy. His name is Mark and he is great. He is in college but is coming home on December 15th. I simply cannot wait! He was around here for a bit but had to go back, so when he comes back from school in Texas I am going to attack him lol. When he is home we are going to go to Boston, Monarchs Hockey Game and a Celtics game. All within the one month he is home. He is having me meet his parents and he is going to meet my mom. I want him to come back so badly. We are going to have the bst break. I'll keep you posted. 22 days :) Happy Thanksgiving.

Things are etting difficult. I applied to all of these colleges and I am getting nervous waiting for a responce. Me and Alex broke up in January, and yes, I believe I am over him. Yes, I miss him and how we used to be but I don't wish that we were together again anymore. After Alex I was seeing Drew for 3 or 4 months, but we weren't in a relationship. Anthony and I were only dating for a really short time and to be honest, it didn't mean anything. I guess what I am saying is, I hate being single. I want to have a boyfriend. Somebody who will be there for me and support me. I don't know what it is but apparently that just can't happen for me. I am texting my friend Mark and he wants to sleep with me, like every other guy. I don't mean anything to him. I just want to mean something to somebody. I really don't have a good self esteem, and the fact that I really don't mean shit to anybody doesn't help. I just wish I could have somebody there for me, who likes me as a person and not just another sex object.