I am happy. I am going to visit Mike today. It has been a few weeks since I last saw him. I get to show him my tattoo too :) I'm having second thoughts about dating Chris. He wants to. I kinda want to. I still sort of have a thing for Kevin. But Kevin in joining the army and I am afraid we will just end up breaking up when he leaves in February. Plus I don't see him enough as it is. I am going to hang out with him this weekend and maybe we will work things out, maybe. He is gorgeous though. I'd give anything to be with him, for reasons other than just his looks lol. He is coming with me and Becca and probably Becca's boyfriend/friend thing, Mark, to Nightmare New England and Screemfest. I am so excited for it. I suppose I have a lot to think about.

So today Chris dumped his girlfriend. I sorta want to date him. He nice, something different from what I am used to. I am just waiting til he is ready.

I got my tattoo today :) It hurt a little but it turned out really good. My mommy likes it too :D It was totally worth it!

So I made an appointment today. I am getting my tattoo tomorrow at 4pm :) I am so excited. I know it is going to hurt like a bitch but I will be okay. I am sooooooo happy though. My mom isn't at all. But I am 18 years old and this is something I have wanted since February when Liv died, so it's not like I am rushing into anything. I am getting a dove on the back of my right shoulder. It is going to be very pretty :) I'll let you know how it goes!

Calling all boys: I am looking for a boy who is smart, loving, caring and has a personality. I want to talk on the phone for hours and see you all the time. I want a boy who won't hurt me, or lie to me. I am looking for a mature boy who will love me or everything that I am, unconditionally. Is that so hard to ask for? Do you know him?