today i finally got to see my mom and went shopping with her after 1 month or two. i never get to see her and i guess its just the way that it goes if you dont live with her and you are only 16 years old. life gets busy. i dont know. my life sucks sometimes neway! i dont know. well today was good tho. hopefully i get the job that i applied for. i dont know if i will tho. i need one really bad tho. so i dont know. im desperate. and i need the money sooo bad! i dont know how im going to pay my cell phone bill this month! but i guess things are going okay otherwise. not too bad these days!

went to church this morning. and it was okay. i dont know what to think some days. i just sit there and listen and i dont know. some things just make me want to scream out and i just want to tell him that i love him but i just dont know how to say it. ill be sittin there in my lil world and thinkin about everything in my life and then ill just be my own person and not worry about what other people have to say and when something is said then i dont care. it doesnt matter what people say about me. its my life, not mine.

it was a very hechtic day! sometimes i just hate my life and i am soo stressed. i dont know what to think sometimes. i guess thats just part of life. i dont know if things should go back to the way that they were. i live my life for me though, and not other people. sometimes i should just let people know whats up! and im happy that i found this website because its a way that i can actually say what is on my mind and not have to worry about it. no one knows me on here and they never will. honestly, this will probably be the only time that i get on here. i will forget this site and my password and everything. but i dont know maybe ill get on everysooften! so dueces! good night!