i breath in nothing comes out i'm suffocating you stole my life like a secret and like a secret it came out love taken for granted is no more i've made it thirteen without you sweet matriarch i've stuggled thirteen without you sweet matriarch you gave me chains that cannot be broken you gave me chains that hold me down secrets of the plural form they seep out like cyanide why can't i just get over this my life is a colony to you a colony of one left to fend for his own you never get used to that you never get used to it like you want to my matriarch reincarnated in every goddess i come across met with insecurities of the worst kind insecurities like fires like fires that never go out but people that always go out every last one of them that's all that's in my head they always go out the fire just needs to burn and burn and burn and give me the 3rd degree so i don't forget how you made me want to destroy everything when i had no burns i hope these scars never heal you never get used to that you never get used to it like you want to