She didnt grow up. she didnt mature. but her mind holds no innocense nothins pure. she froze in time. remained in her same state of mind. were nothin was good nothing was right. and like the coward she is surrendered without a ffight. She feels framed and forgotten. remains in her safe place. where the world passed her by without a single trace. What can she do to forget that time. can she move on start again or for her is this that end. abandoned is her you went away and left her lonesome. she cant fend for herself like the loser she became. and as the forgotten she hopes to return her mentality to now. forget the before and feel that pain no more. she just wants to feel alive and ok. fell the love and keep emotions at bay. can this be? will she breathe and begin. she lays and watches as her world begins to spin. she didnt grow . she didnt begin. she isnt alive. carries deep holes within. what will she do. a she move on? she woke up and everyones gone. playing pretend you thin

She didn't bloom, she stayed the same, all because she held onto that pain. She didnt see, she couldnt feel, she was blinded by an emotion, that wasnt real. She felt cheated and deceived, lied and betrayed, you turned your back, that painted her eyes with the darkest black. Now she lay all alone, But her heart sinks like a stone. Her body is cold, her tears are fresh and falling, She crawls to you begs you to stay, But you turn and ignore go the other way. You let her die, in more ways then one, She didnt know this wasnt her end, She didnt know you werent meant to be, she learned the hard way, And what a price she had to pay.

oh...my..goodness! is this person for real??! this is how the convo went. "hey C, come here' i go up to them and they say "i'm cool,your weird. i'm tall your short. i'm smart your dumb" and how do i react? yup like the loser i aam i say nothhing.maybe i just didnt want to waste my breathe or time.but my sister felt otherwise lol she said "uh..i think u got it the wrong way, C is smart..shes cool andd ur sadly mistaken" thanks julie for having my back lol im sorry she got stuck with such a loser for an older sister.but idk this persons words didnt urt me just sort of made me laugh 'internally' because it was a pathertic attempt to try to hurt my feelings. and they failedd.yes you failed at trying to get me.im sorry i dont care please..please waste ur time onn someone else Moron. anyway on another note i wrote down a story one-shot to be exact and im most likely posting it on fictionpress ;) its my ffirst one-shot not sure if its good but i had to get it on paper anyhoo let me know y'all if ya wanna read iit! Love, C peace out homies!