Sooooos we got to New york today after a taxi, two planes, a bus and a limo (1st time for me!). I am very very very tired after all that. In the limo my eyes were like dinner plates just seeing a school bus and a few yellow taxis then we got more into the city and I was practically two eyes on legs, wow!

I just got toothpaste in my eye 'cause I put it on some zits and stuff, then it got all irritated and stuff so now I've got babies-ass cream all over my face to soothe it. I also put some on this blistered burn on the tip of my finger which hurts A LOT (honest I was tryin' to play Welcome to the Black Parade on guitar and I was almost crying). So anyways, away from all of that, we were driving up the road from my Gran & Grandpas caravan, it takes about an hour and forty minutes but it seemed so much shorter. We weren't really talking much just listening to the radio and looking at the beauty of the world. And the world really is amazing when you really think about it we were on the west coast of Scotland and it was so clear that I could see across the water to Ireland, I could actually see Ireland. Last night we drove down there (yeh just a one night stay) and the sun was setting, a full moon was rising, the sky was like a rainbow; glowing orange and Red where the sun was fading into a deep indigo where the moon shone. Like, wow sometimes ya just don't notice how incredible things are until you look at them properly. I found myself thinking; forget about fast cars and TVs and Computers, this is all you need, nature and some good tunes to live with. WannabePunkEmoKid x

So on Tuesday we (mum,dad,me + my brother) are going to New York, the family holiday y'know and I am as excited.... as an excited thing on...excited tablets....Yeh and we're going to Boston too to visit some family there. So I am happy even though I still have to pack......but anyway ^_^. And another thing Dad says he'll get me and my cousin All Time Low tickets for March so again ^_^! Though he better not dye his hair then (he has to come for us to be able to get in)... WannabePunkEmoKid x P.S- Has anybody ever had Pop rocks and Coke 'cause I heard the myth and I know its a myth but still......

My dad just dyed his hair blonde....yikes! he looks like a twat.....

Last night this TV competition show-thingy (Must be the music) finished and this girl Emma's Imagination won it. Her music is beautiful, anybody who loves acoustic stuff should really give her a listen. WannabePunkEmoKid

So I am now known as GreendayGirl or Ed (my initials) and, yeh, I don't like it (Ed more than GDG). These two boys I know started up a joke, Ed, and now pratically all the guys are calling me that (or Eddy). It actually hurts when they say it and I try to cover it up by ignoring them and so on but it still is getting to me - along with the emo/goth/etc. comments. People'll say that I bring the goth/emo/etc. ones upon myself but the reason I express myself like that is because of them, calling me what they do. I just wanna be accepted for who I am, not my grades, not my clothes, not what I like. Also my brother is getting totally pissed with me because I always have music channels on (MTV Rocks, Kerrang or Q mostly), I can't help it though when life gets hard I turn up the radio or play my guitar a lot more. Sometimes life stings.... WannabePunkEmoKid

It is raining. Heavy. It's windy too, so windy that in French today you could see the tiles lifting from the ceiling. I am not kidding. Summer is officially over. Yippee... It don't help when a hair-ography type band (not hair metal, hair metal kicks ass) are on the TV. Oh the joys of life, shitty weather, shitty music and nearly passing out, all in one day. I think I should count my blessings (I am pretty lucky after all) Home Family Health Education Freedom I got all them. WannabePunkEmoKid Oh yeh yesterday my brother wondered into my room, lay down on my bed, talked to me for a minute and then fell asleep. Very Random.....

Where does the universe end? If it does..... I've been imagining flying through space, on and on and on then wouldn't you come to something, like a wall, you'd want to see over that wall so you'd climb over it (well that idea) and then you'd keep going and you'd repeat that again. So when would that cycle end, would it even? I don't think we'll ever know. Unless we find a way to travel faster than the speed of light (in saying that Einstein said if you can travel faster than the speed of light you can travel in time). We'll just have to keep imagining and dreaming, the sky's the limit there. We'll come up with endless theories and half of them we won't know if they're right. C'est la vie.... Another thing, everything leads down to a question; Why is the world always changing? Because of us. How did we get here? (I'm a Christian but I'll use this theory) The big bang. How did that happen? Loads of different gases and so on reacted and millions and millions of years later here we are. How did all those 'gases and so on' get there? See my point? Obviously I don't expect anybody to reply to this, I am just totally bored and then I got thinking about all this..... WannabePunkEmoKid Also does Taylor Momsens Daddy know she's out dressed like that?

La la la la la..... Rum Tum Tum Riddley Tum...... The music channels are on and I'm singing....tra la la.... Feels good :)

When lifes got handed out i musta been pretty near the back of the line. In school I am an outsider, a freak, a weirdo, whatever effing thing. People think cause im different that i dont feel anything