i think i could be diagnosed with something or im just a bitch and a control freak jeeze i want a boyfriend but i dont like anyone i dont want to be alone but i hate socializng i hope you get hit by a bus but i miss u like crazy i want you back but i dont i want a boyfriend so damn bad but idk if its for the right reasons i want to be happy for u but go fuck urself in the ass i want to like her but she is the biggest two faced bitch i know who sleeps around and is the biggest flirt i know ur the jealous type...so have oodles of fun dealing with that!! ^ i want to be happy but im not over whoa whoa whoa im over you i just... i don't like the feeling of being replaced the sickening thing: THATS LIFE and thats basically the only thing i am ever going to experience in this life, and in love. fucking a.

well golly gee im just so happy for you too!

no really

i mean it!! im sure you guys are just so perfect for eachother and ur gonna fall so in love and everythings gonna be just peachy for you two!! now u have everythng u always wanted!



its a shame that ur dating the biggest flirt and a major slut...so much for u being "different"

time sure changes people huh



and im so glad that after a year of pining for him, bitch, you finally get my sloppy seconds.

enjoy.



it just pisses me off that all these times you dont remember are the the times ill never forget.

so u can go on and pretend like we never dated for over a year and u were practically fuckin retarded and blind with your love for me.



you seem to move on quickly for a cry baby.





a whore and a dick.

a match made in heaven



im sure you two will get places!!



congratufuckinlations









hooray for me and fuck you

invite me to the wedding so i can make it a night to remember..>:)



fuck yourselves



kbye

without you i'm just me

get involved

will power. what the fuck is that. will power is a foreign concept to me. the truth is, i am so apathetic is sickens me. i am literally scared. scared for my future, scared for my present, scared for my grades, scared for my social life. im scared of missing out on life cuz im too motherfuckin lazy. i have zero desire to do anything. this isnt normal this cant be normal i am no ok I AM NOT OK i dont want to see him. i dont want to hang out with my friends. i dont want to study or do homework. i dont want to go to school. i dont want to play sports or volunteer. i dont want to leave my house. my life: get up, drag my ass to school, come home, listen to music and watch tv, go to bed, repeat. every day. no change. i dont get upset by this this doesnt make me happy though i just feel numb or comatose why cant i feel anything why cant i be a normal fucking human for once i am so scared about my laziness. i want a successful life. im scared ill never make it i need to get a hobby. everything i ever tried to care about has let me down i cant sing i dont even remember how to locate the middle c key on a piano i cant even play guitar HERO i hate reading and sports and excersing and people and animals and kids and volunteering and studying and painting and shopping. i do like going to concerts. i like listening to songs and reading lyrics and discovering new bands and i like car rides...not driving but just being in the car i like eating but thats negated by the fact i hate being as fat as i am even though everyone says im not...theyre lying i like watching tv i like private times but i hate being alone other times i like going on twitter and different websites for bands because i feel like if i knew these people on a personal level i would love them more than any of the friends i have i like reading magazines no matter the subject unless its like gardening and cooking i like playing gamecube i like the legend of zelda i like my guinea pigs i like daydreaming i like sunglasses i like pictures i guess there are some things i do like these would be referred to as the things worth living for

the only thing in life i ever wanted was purpose

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today my circle of girlfriends were all talking about who we would marry if we could marry anyone in the world, and why. we all went around saying who we would marry. she said john o'callaghan. i said jesse lacey. she said jensen ackles. and then you said hayley williams. everyone just sat there awkardly and then i gave you a high five. i mean, its hayley fucking williams, i'd go gay for her. but the difference was that you really are gay. and every one treats you differently now that they know. i dont want to be like them but im constantly freaking out hoping not to say something that sounds homophobic around you. youre one of my best friends no matter what maybe if i ever get a boyfriend and you find a hot chick we could double date i accept you. i wish everyone else would too

& i wish i could inspire

in a perfect world, i would be pretty. in a perfect world, i would be skinny. in a perfect world, i would be liked, loved, and accepted. in a perfect world, i would be smart. in a perfect world, i would be graceful. in a perfect world, i would be fearless. in a perfect world, hayley williams would be my best friend. in a perfect world, jesse lacey would be my husband. in a perfect world, i'd be blessed enough to play an instrument. in a perfect world, i would go to a concert every night. in a perfect world, there would be guitar hero: panic! at the disco... ...and in a perfect world, there would be taking back sunday bonus tracks. in a perfect world, i would be happy. all the time. in a perfect world, you and i would be together. and in a perfect world, it would feel right.