Here i am. I am beautiful, and people have told me this all my life, but I've realized that this does not matter. The way I look will never make someone fall in love with me....yes it will attract them for a mere amount of time (just enough time for me to fall much deeper than they have for me). But am I to blame?...all the things they tell me in my ear, the way they put me on top of the world...how can't I fall for them if they make me feel so wonderful?...but then its all just to drop me back down on the cruel rocky surface of loneliness and worthlessness. It's depleting, and men do not realize how much their little games effect us. Yet through experience I have grown to be bulletproof (haha yes just like the song). Women regardless of how beautiful they may be must live with their guards up because otherwise, you will get hurt. My first real serious boyfriend I would have never expected to ever break my heart, but he did. I promised myself I would never let myself be so vunerable to the hurt next time. So with this new guy that is exactly what I did, and good because I saw him with another girl...a girl that I have been compared to physically before (so that does not help)...it just makes me wonder why her and why not me still? what did I ever do wrong? and when will I ever find that guy that I can take off my bulletproof vest for and know that he won't ever hurt me or let me down once I do?