Wow! I havent been in the journal section of songmenings in a while and my god is it beautiful. Everyone is here and i can see their stories and i can see their lives and it makes me so happy. Cause i feel really close to people i've never met before and i can comment on their lives. It's a wonderful thing, really.Â
But enough of that. My life is what is most important here.Â
(Nah just jk-ing)
I feel really, really good right now. Like yeah my life isn't where it should be compared to others my age. Like i should definietly be going to college right now but i'm not. Instead i'm working a the local OG and i love the people i work with (i work in the back with all the mexican cooks and they're just some of the greatest, funniest people ever.) And i probably should be meeting new people and starting new relationships but i'm focusing on my closest friends and improving and tightly weaving together a lasting and forever relationship with them. Instead of clinging onto childhood and making as little hard choices as possible, I made the decsision to move out and now i have my very own home. With my own lamps and wall hangings and throw-pillows. Of course i brought along my very good friend and my well-respected older sister (older by two years big woop) because i know i wouldn't be able to make the shift so easily by myself. So shout out to them for taking the leap with me.
And everything is pretty good right now. I have my lovely big, black dog Whyte next to me and my slinky, lanky cat Sancho on my lap Life is looking like I'm going to be okay. Like We're all going to be okay. Sure, my life right now is not the ideal "success" story high school graduates  should shoot for, but i'm content. I think after years of schooling and fast-paced-ness called adolescence, we deserve a small break. A year long vacation from life. A cheap but nice house produces no outstanding bills but stills allows me the freedom of "getting away".  Interacting with a max of 6 people a day lets me form my own opioion of who i am and goals i will need to set. Becasue thats the thing, doing nothing for a year can easily become doing nothing for 2 years, and that turns into doing nothing for 4 years, and 6 years later i find myself doing nothing but being depressed that i'm still stuck in missouri. Goals need to be set. I need to make sure aim and direction are still relevant in my life. I need to have places to go and i'll be okay. It'll be okay.Â
So i think i made this a little too long this time. And this was all about nothing. But i'm glad i did this. I feel good today.Â
Wow! I havent been in the journal section of songmenings in a while and my god is it beautiful. Everyone is here and i can see their stories and i can see their lives and it makes me so happy. Cause i feel really close to people i've never met before and i can comment on their lives. It's a wonderful thing, really.Â
But enough of that. My life is what is most important here.Â
(Nah just jk-ing)
I feel really, really good right now. Like yeah my life isn't where it should be compared to others my age. Like i should definietly be going to college right now but i'm not. Instead i'm working a the local OG and i love the people i work with (i work in the back with all the mexican cooks and they're just some of the greatest, funniest people ever.) And i probably should be meeting new people and starting new relationships but i'm focusing on my closest friends and improving and tightly weaving together a lasting and forever relationship with them. Instead of clinging onto childhood and making as little hard choices as possible, I made the decsision to move out and now i have my very own home. With my own lamps and wall hangings and throw-pillows. Of course i brought along my very good friend and my well-respected older sister (older by two years big woop) because i know i wouldn't be able to make the shift so easily by myself. So shout out to them for taking the leap with me.
And everything is pretty good right now. I have my lovely big, black dog Whyte next to me and my slinky, lanky cat Sancho on my lap Life is looking like I'm going to be okay. Like We're all going to be okay. Sure, my life right now is not the ideal "success" story high school graduates  should shoot for, but i'm content. I think after years of schooling and fast-paced-ness called adolescence, we deserve a small break. A year long vacation from life. A cheap but nice house produces no outstanding bills but stills allows me the freedom of "getting away".  Interacting with a max of 6 people a day lets me form my own opioion of who i am and goals i will need to set. Becasue thats the thing, doing nothing for a year can easily become doing nothing for 2 years, and that turns into doing nothing for 4 years, and 6 years later i find myself doing nothing but being depressed that i'm still stuck in missouri. Goals need to be set. I need to make sure aim and direction are still relevant in my life. I need to have places to go and i'll be okay. It'll be okay.Â
So i think i made this a little too long this time. And this was all about nothing. But i'm glad i did this. I feel good today.Â