The title of this was a song i heard from a band my friend showed me, by MaybeSheWill. It's a pretty sweet band, you should check it out. Anyways... It's been a while Songmeanings.I've been making some new videos and the holidays are going.. decent. This year, well, not really this year, but recently I've been growing distant to the ones I love, and now, I'm starting to lose the one I really love, the one I journeyed for back in the day. The one i owe alot to. I know. Man... I'm a horrible friend, not only to her, but to the others too. Shes awesome!.. And i'm just not. i know she deserves better than a run down, dire of a dude like me. I don't blame her. (sigh) maybe shes right on just forgetting... She said this new year coming up, shes going to change herself. To find out who her TRUE friends are. I'm weary if i made it on the VIP. :( man... maybe this year i can change too, Not only for her but for myself. If you're reading this right now... I'm sorry. Truly I am. People don't realize what they have until its truly gone. Speaking of which, suicide boys and gals... not worth it. If you're thinking in your head about how selfish you're being, or how selfish you become, offing yourself is the ultimate selfish desire. If you don't care for yourself, care for the others' pain, who'll miss you dearly. Thank you, if you're reading you know who you are; who helped me in these tough times I'm going through right now. I literally owe that person my life. And i love her, as much as a friendguy can. But all that's done and done... Again, if you're reading this... I love you, I'm a horrible friend :'( you're response has yet to come. Every second is anxiety for me. Just keep this in mind, I'll love you no matter what you choose. Thank you.