AlexandHelen's Journal

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  • Archives for April 2010
  • bite

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    Im not even hungry but I bite the hand that feeds me Im not one for feeling good and who are you to think i should I wouldnt change who I am for someone as shitty as you I wouldnt change how I act for someone at my shoes your just a worm go on and kiss the ground and hold yourself till your safe and sound Im not one for feeling glad and who are you to judge who I am always have been mean you just dont see you see yourself in a golden mirror thats the source of my anger of my anger I wouldnt change who I am for someone as shitty as you I wouldnt change how I act for someone at my shoes your just a worm go on and kiss the ground and hold yourself till your safe and sound Im not one for feeling glad and who are you to judge who I am
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  • shove

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    Im not ideal and not thin shove and feel like a sin down my throat until i spit not a note just grit got my curves and my boobs not like girls not like you so mature so young till im sure your in love find a shovel and a pound its a tunnel its a mound in my system now im gone its a seldom seldom song
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  • carcass

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    em g you havnt opened for days d your brittle hand lays em on the lace and the gown g your to pretty for the ground d to pale for the fire em the mourning is dire em c g will you see me now? will you talk out loud? your eyelids so frail, and your lips turn pail. what did i have to do, to get a breath out of you. a stop a horrible ageless your such a still carcass now the van pulls in and they take you limp to a place full of lace its always the place where i say my goodbyes you didnt have to die will you see me now? will you talk out loud? your eyelids so frail, and your lips turn pail. what did i have to do, to get a breath out of you. a stop a horrible ageless your such a still carcass
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  • soft

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    I dont want to look soft how women shood raped in the alley killed in the wood but at least i was soft soft and feminine holding my husband hes a grown man boss me around i dont mind your the meat and im the hide and the seed inside of me will share the abuse he'll see why should i look like her? why should i be concerned? is it what god wants? or is it just you? why should i be deprived? I ask go why oh why? I ask myself why i hide? and i try to like your body so maybe god will want me, maybe someday, i'll be, soft.
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  • deer song

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    I'm laying down behind a bush I am waiting for the push I am just a lonely deer No one really wants me here But in the night when its cold Beneath what winters sold I know the secrets of this land A lonely deer is what I am Some day I'll break away and free Running through a cold streak When the time my eyes flash Their red is the darker stash Give me up for trophies sake I'll hide behind winters lake I'm am crouching behind a bush Waiting for the time I'll push I am just a modest hunter No one really wants me either I'll spare you for beauties sake Hide behind winters lake Your eyes hold the secrets Can I know what's beneath it? Some day I'll break away and free Running through a cold streak When the time your eyes flash Their red is the darker stash Give you up for trophies sake Go hide behind winters lake Some day I'll break away and free Running through a cold streak When the time my eyes flash Their red is the darker stash Give me up for trophies sake I'll hide behind winters lake
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  • God loves me now.

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    This is where I hit the ground Now I concentrate on sound This is where we threw me Into a dumpster my body This is the morning they found me The flys and bugs surround me My siblings eyes are red My mother holds their hand Is it alright now? Is everyone alright now? In a box now in the ground. Don’t be sad, don’t avenge. Everythings alright now. God loves me now. My room is untouched Their eyes are flushed Pale when they go back Into this world of slack Doesn’t make no difference You said you'd get through it You said god didn’t care But I know now im there Is it alright now? Is everyone alright now? In a box now in the ground. Don’t be sad, don't avenge. Every things alright now. God loves me now.
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  • the sad thing is

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    Your gonna break up with me And you think its gonna hurt me Its sad you think its gonna hurt me Its sad you think its gonna hurt me Are you gonna be with him And hes gonna treat you bad Are you gonna suck his dick Wondering what you could of had I can tell your gonna break your vows Gonna dump me on the ground Gonna think my ship will sink I'm not as fragile as you think The sad thing is you think I care The sad thing is you’ll apologize The sad thing is you've never hurt me The sad thing is I don't care Bet you think you're gonna hurt me Your gonna break up with me And you think its gonna hurt me Its sad you think its gonna hurt me Its sad you think its gonna hurt me The sad thing is you think I care The sad thing is you’ll apologize The sad thing is you've never hurt me The sad thing is I don't care
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  • are you cheating on me

    by AlexandHelen on April 19, 2010
    C em a Don't give your bullshit Because I can see you love it When he says something special This guy gives me hell You've lost your interest Even though I try my best I confront you, you get angry Stop giving away the ending F g Are you cheating on me? G Even though you said you loved me? You’ve been fucking around Now my foots on the ground Are you cheating on me? Why would you say you loved me? Em Mood swings C Phone rings You love him Fuck him I don’t care You love him Why do you keep me around? When its obvious you've found Someone else you can toy with Is the pain to much to lift? Are you cheating on me? Even though you said you loved me? You’ve been fucking around Now my foots on the ground Are you cheating on me? Why would you say you loved me? Deny it Bullshit You don't love me. Fuck off Its too late No ones ever loved me.
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