a long time ago we used to be friends i've got a lot to think about and not much to say i don't want you honey but i need you to stay i can't understand the things that i say but you should beleive me anyways i can't say anything without someone new boarding this thought train oh i'm sorry if i offended you but really could you not be so obtuse? its not my fault you choose to fall and beleive all the bullshit i tell you but suddenly you change and you aren't yourself anymore and you're stronger and you don't bend with what i say and you don't try in the same way they did and i like the way you don't bend is it okay if i admire the way you make the world seem okay? maybe its the melody or the words or the rythme but you fix it and make me feel okay to be a bit naive it seems so simple and justifiable when i never know wether the world will fall apart or not and you seem to know the better things about life and the gentle secrets that i wish i could hide beneath my skin that i wish were my pleasure to keep i don't know i'm not sure my mind... is not there is it silly? to want the world to be okay? is it silly? to want to smile and laugh? is it silly? when everyone is scared as hell is it silly? to think we're important at all? is it silly? to be an optimist in a realistic world? is it silly? not if you wanna take things little less seriously is it silly? we got time, lets use it.

maybe its just me i like the way the clouds look and the way the sun shines and i like the way i feel when i'm with you except they say things like oh for sure he's really into you but is that true? when i always edit what i'm going to say for you i don't think that means to much except that its a little harder to get through your heart cause your head is always in the way and maybe its a reason to run away but its kinda nice to see a boy and know that he isn't wrapped up in his own heart strings cause thats quite a mess and i don't want to pick it up just like all those other times when i left them and their hearts laying on the floor i'm sorry but theres something underneath inside and i don't know if i like it and i'm not sure i want to you act dangerous and you never tell the truth you think you put it past me but you don't oh you are so full of your gallivanting self and maybe thats why i don't feel so bad about stomping on your heart so repeatedly its not that i ever had anything for you more like i was selfish and keeping you all tied up cause it made you feel useful and it was a nice way to wast time waiting for someone who is a mystery i'm not sure what he thinks his heart is neatly tucked in for now and i like that i'm not as in control. you seem to disagree with me? i controlled even though you best me physically i always win emotionally you let me in and i looked around it is so easy to break something when you don't care about where or when or how and in other circumstances it is too easy to break something you watch like a hawk so i suppose the weathers stormy now and the wind is in a frenzy but i just had to remind you that this world is not meant for scary things i don't want your dark light your lies and whatever dreadful new situation you decide to break up the montony of small town life i'm happy here in the sunshine you better not toe the line