I miss the days when having fun meant aimlessly and spontaneously driving around town. I miss the days of sitting in a basement with you, reading magazines and flipping through yearbooks for hours. I miss the days when they couldn't get us to stop talking, but now we don't say much more than acquaintance small talk. I miss the days when you didn't need your sand-creek-bottled-shit to have a good time. I miss the days when we both couldn't wait for college because we hoped it would be the place where we'd find people actually worth dating. It's tough losing one friend to her beloved liquid remedies and another to the love of her life. It's tough when people you know become people you knew. But most of all, it's tough when you know there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it.