what are we exactly?

Feelings,emotions and whatnot.. whats the point. Half the world is drowning in misery for their own reasons but lookin up at the sky they see it,just standing there,unchanged and eternal.Its almost as if it mocks us as these crazy chemicals run around inside our heads driving some mad and pleasuring the rest.

I just dont know what to do with em....although once in the presence of others all these feelings vanish, leaving me to once again become an alien to myself.

So here I sign up once again to an unfamiliar site to feed vicariously off of millions of stranger's words and their interpretaions of life and song to fill this odd apetite of mine. Living in isolation from the realms of sanity for the past 6-7 yrs(long stry), i've realised the best gift one can have and which most take for granted is companionship and consistence...may seem akward but true,and can only be proved through experience. Drastic downfalls can have staggering effects on ones mind...but then i think why not just let this mind go,float off...but can't sem to find the right medium...and no i won't give into some steriotyped answer-Drugs. I stand on the line between consciousness of the above and the will to jump into this hole falling freely to destroy myself completely. Confusion haunts me.