Wow, couldn't have asked for better. Always used to visit songmeanings without a user ID, but I thought it was about time I signed up for one - and this journal thing is just a bonus! I've been wanting to vent the frustrations somewhere since the abandoning of tumblr, and I guess everything just falls nicely into place. Guess the song reflecting my mood and feelings now would probably be The Academy Is's The Test: Put it simply I need to stop reading too much into what the girl says or does. Simply a case of raising my hopes too high for something to happen, then watching every bit of it come crashing down with her honest assessment of where we stand: "I'm just happy to be talking to you again" and more importantly "I'm not looking to be in a relationship now". I need to understand that her constant engagement in conversation with me via BBM, and the times we meet till late only for me to come home to an empty house because the family's already out to work is simply probably her desire for platonic company - nothing more nothing less. What can I say? It hurts and I wish things weren't the way they are. So cliche I know, but she really makes me feel for her the way no other girl can. I guess I cannot be too emotional to her anymore, this place would be a good substitute though. Back to music though, Fast Times at Barrington High has probably cemented it's place as one of my all time favourites. I've always felt that when an or a artiste/band creates an album where you take a liking to majority of the songs, then it's pretty special to say the very least. Not many bands have made me feel that way: only Anberlin and We the Kings perhaps? More musical inspiration for this sad heart please!!