I'm sick and tired of thinking I'm doing good things and not be. Or trying to do good and getting in trouble for it. I've relized to just keep my thoughts and feelings inside cuz they always make it worse. I just don't know wat to do anymore. I'm driving myself insane trying to fight with myself on doing the right thing or the easy thing. Its like there's 2 of me: the good and the bad. And lately the bads been over takeing the good. And its soooooo hard to deal with that. Its hard to tell anyone without them thinking I'm crazy or bipolar. I hate how mad I am all the time or how easy it is to get angry. Jeeze I'm ready for a complet overhaul of myself!!!!

Man I have had a bad day. I mean when you think about it its all tottaly my fault to get grouded for a month. I'm just tired of thinking I'm doing right and not be. Or doing somethig good and getting in trouble for it. I can't tell you how many days I just want to leave but can't. I hate how angry I am all the time. And how easy I get mad. I'm ready to give my life to God and not turn back!!!!