<p>under the request of my friend, im adding to my journal. feeling a bit promiscuous lately, maybe due to the lack of sex in my life. life has been up and down for me but that is no different to how it normally is. somedays i feel like crashing my car somewhere, it's as easy as letting go of the wheel as scary as it is. I cut myself a little bit with the utility knife and now i have tiny cuts on 3 places, yay. this journal is probably more than 10 years old. but have a i matured since then? hell no lol. though now i am married and paying a mortgage. living peacefully with my husband, life is fine right now.</p> <p>Ps. hi stan.</p>