song which describes what i feel right now. 

i have a crush on my coworker. it's so hard, because i have had dreams about him, i don't know why i dream about him so much. Last night I dreamt about work. I was strangling one of my coworkers, and he was just chilling there with his family at my workplace (it;s like a restaurant) but it me happy that he was there.

my boyfriend and i, have now broken up, but still remain friends.

he drove me home from work, for the first time tonight, and i was just so giddy. I'm so embarassed, i cant even talk to him properly. he makes my heart jump. I'm very bad to have a crush on my coworker for so long, and my boyfriend and i broke up a few days ago.

in his car, he mentioned to me that he heard that my boyfriend and i broke up even though i didn't tell him directly, i told my other coworkers.

he asked me what happened, i told him that my bf wanted to be friends with me. He told me he moved on from relationships pretty quickly and that his last relationship lasted for 4 years. I think he likes me, and i like him, but i don't want to rush into a new relationship. 

It's best to take the advice from my first bf. you should half the time (of you previous relationship) out of a relationship, which would make it 5 months before im ready to start datiing someone else.

I still care for cameron, i hold him dear to my heart. and i would say the same for oliver. i still care for them. no more relationships please. they make me go crazy.