i just want you to be my boyfriend, i want you to be there for me. I can't stop the tears from flowing all these feelings are rushing out of me. my own insecurities eating out at me. Im crying and screaming into my pillow trying to muffle the sounds. I don't want any one to come in.

All these things I try to bury. Work, my ex, charlie, my current so. all these things are coming oout of me. I don't feel mentally stable after what that stupid coworker said to me today. I feel like he put me on a pedestal just to gawk at me. I fucking hate people like that, why does society have to be so cruel. 

SO please listen to me, I just want you to feel your love, in times of need, not be rejected by you, i feel so terrible. godammit. nobody hear to cry on. i need a therapist or something

i'll be sad now. feeling sad because i was put under emotional stress. I fucking hate people, why did a creepy man talk to me today, i just want to hug my boyfriend, it pains me, i have emotional needs. I want to be hugged. I feel like crying right now.