After work, I was waiting for the bus at the bus stop. Mind you by the time the bus picked me up it was 7 min late, also there was no one else on the bus.. so what gives. As I was standing by the curb at 3:41 where my bus was supposed to arrive, I just kept listening and watching the cars driving past, they were so close to me, I just felt like stepping in front of one. I wanted to feel my body explode into pieces, but then I kept thinking about the people in those cars, and how it would be cruel to them.

My intelligence has dropped over the years, I don't know why, do I have some sort of disease. I'm not as smart as I used to be. I wish I saw my bf today, I need a hug.

my mum is so annoying. it's 1am. and she opens mydoor to get toilet paper in my room, my lights are off, and she doesnt knock, so fucking irritating. i could have been asleep. why the fuck is the toilet paper in my damn room anyway. it should be in the fucking toilet. i really hate my life.