so they' re crickets in my house at night, they dont bother me so much, but they jump on things and make a noise. they aren't really crickets, they like the hoppers from a bugs life, brown colour, and dont make a cricket sound. anyway one of them was jumping on a plastic shopping bag on the ground, then jump on the laptop case, i had to turn my head, and see wtf was that noise.

my modem randomly disconnected at 12:00 when i was looking at creepy reddit stuff, and my internet wasn't working, i got real scared. I had one drink tonight, as i was checking my modem, all i could crouching down, was this really fast tapping noise, like fapping speed, but with tapping against the wall. it was really soft though and a sharp sound, so i doubt it was fapping. i could hear an opera child singing for a brief moment, like 2 secs, and i could also hear the sound of a car pulling into our driveway for a moment, but then it was gone. and now my dad is home. so it wasn't him. it was probably all in my head, so this is why i title this journal alcohol makes me scared. because usually i wouldn't be. 

*hugs*

question for you. is it acceptable for your boyfriend/girlfriend, to lift up and carry one of his friends who is a girl?

*shakes head in sadness*

*drunken text maybe, apologies in advance

i always have to reload before i can type anything. does anyone else get that.

i hate waiting for people who dont care

i feel like leaving everything behind; do guys not know what goes through a girls mind, if i dont text you it doesnt mean everything is ok. i means i want you to text me. did you forget me. you;re so mean. why does the girl have to text the guy first when he is to a party. im stuck here playing wow. i hate everything. ignoring the fact that im acting like my 17 yearold self from the past, except with a boyfriend now, that doesnt show he cares. i dont think he does.

why are we still together.