I went into my relationship thinking it be like any online flirting relationship, no strings attached. At first he was flirty, and I was not, to be honest I thought my boyfriend was too young and immature for me. I treated him like a child, which i really regret. Because when i ask him these things "do i treat you like a child?" he says "sometimes". I'm taken aback by this because he never mentioned it. He doesn't tell me how he is feeling unless a question comes up, which bothers me. I asked him tonight "what do i do that annoys you" and he asks "recently?" i say yes. He says "sometimes when you're not sad you treat me as though im there to be there" "like I'm there just to make you happy". I see my boyfriend in a different light because he is not open with me, this is the first time i heard in his voice that he was fighting back "will you let me finish my sentence?". I'm kind of happy i got to see this side of him, how he really feels, he usually hides his feelings from me, just to protect me. But i feel it's natural to fight in the relationship to establish balance, but when i start to fight or cry about something, he will just say sorry, and this makes me more angry, because i feel like he doesn't care. I feel guilty and hurtful, and wanting to hurt his feelings. When i tell him "he doesn't care" he says it really hurts him, because it's saying i don't appreciate him. I feel that he doesn't show it in his actions, that he cares, he says in his words, but his actions are what i look for. Over this LDR it is just impossible to maintain happiness. what i want him to do, is do something for me. just take some time out of his to do something for me, not just do it because im angry at him. something like drawing me a picture. or singing to me. I never want him to do it because im sad, just to cheer me up, but because he wants to do it. I don't know what i really want out of this relationship. I idolise my boyfriend too much. I just see his height and green eyes, and think he is perfect. But he hurts me, he doesn't give me enough attention to satisfy me. He often can't hear what i say. i think that is a pronounciation barrier. Seems the world can't understand what i'm saying. But i have a big mind, and a small heart. This heart holds one person at a time, and sadly to say sometimes it is myself, and i forget my boyfriend. I forget to appreciate him. I just wish we could go back to the start of our relationship.

Also he moves way too fast. He wants us to move in together, I want it too. But realistically think we have spent a max of 3 days together at a time. I don't want living together to break our relationship.