well today i feel like shit (like everyother day )but i feel thought if the day is going to be better some how i cant wait to leave north carolina and go back home where i belong and i cant wait to turn 18 to move out my moms house and shit iam done with her shit.

well im one of those kids who cut themselfs .i guess it feel good to let that out.i started to cut myself after my house got burn down i guess that was my way to deal with the stress . i use to do it alot but never did it on my wrist cause i was afriad that someone will see tthe scar so i do to my leg .then i had to move to north carolina that was so stressful for me so i beging to have these thought that noone care if i live or die .my mother is a bitch and got rid of my father . so iam in north carolina all alone stilll thinking of those thought .i felt so out of place then school started.so i dont know anyone in this school so then i begin to be even more stress out then i got some friends.and i told myself iam going to quit cutting myself so i throw out all my blades.

i realized that iam a horrible person .on sunday i saw a guy on the side of the road that needed help .he ask me if i can go to the gas station and i said no and went away as i got home i realize that i did a bad thing for not helping this man .i said to meself what if eric,danny or anyone else was there then they would him out so i thought to myself i was rise better then this (not by my mother or step-dad) why didt i help this man out and i feel guilty about the whole thing .as i woke up today i said to myself "god iam a fucking loser ". right now all i want to do is give up and walk straight off this world .noone will care or miss me so there no real lose,i guess that iam okay with this .kthxbai