this song to me is very powerful... i feel like with everything that i have been through with my friend(F) at times this is how i feel... like im losing him and the only think i have to make me feel alive are memories, just like in the song, my memories are only brief pictures to look at that i hold dear to my heart but they are only memories and thats all they will ever be because if your losing someone or youve lost someone your memories cant live on they are only discussed in your head... oh man i just feel like my mind is racing right now with so many different thoughts and how i feel like a can relate to this song.. reading other peoples entries definately made me look at things different and got my mind going.. and i guess its not a bad thing its just overwhelming at the moment... i more want to share my thoughts with fernando about this song because i know he will relate to how i feel and maybe he will look at things and realize how much he really needs me and wants me around, at least i hope.. you know im so unsure about how he feels towards me and not even in a romantic matter but more like hes cool with me and then hes all of a sudden mad at me for no apparent reason or frustrated with me.. and i think that he keeps me around just enough to have me there for him whenever... but he makes sure he keeps me around cause he has no one else... but other than that its all about his wannabe lover(M) and shit.. he just needs to get over him already because his sick obsession, and trust me i know sick, haha, but its just turning him into some depressed little boy that cant make himself happy because hes consumed himself with this guy and needing him around to make him happy... this is always what i mean by when i say my friend(F) has changed.. but he doesnt understand or see how hes changed cause hes blinded by what he thinks is love and he doesnt see anything wrong or see how hes changed... shit if IM saying hes changed then he definately has cause im usually the one always making excuses for him to myself to my friends and family but i dont see his real self anymore.. i mean i do just not as often as i should... when we are alone its usually the real you,that i know, my guy, my bestfriend, whom im not scared to talk to, that im not annoyed by, that i can be myself around.. gah!!! ugh but lately i feel like im sick of being his doormat or unless reality hit me cause i dont really look at him the way i used to, id like to cause that was one of my favorite parts about having him(F) as my best friend, but i just feel like he pushes me away and he always gets mad and i know its because he knows im right... ugh he really is just like my cousin(L) in a manipulative way.. like always getting what he wants by manipulating me.. ugh i just dont know.oditajhkjhsdjflakn shaj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats how i feel about him (F)right now.. and i know thats rude but i guess hes shown me that asking for him back, my bestfriend, maybe my soulmate (in a nonromantic way)i guess is to much for me to ask for..... oh!! but i forgot, its not him its me taking shit up the ass and being an obsessed phsyco bitch...