Im at jamies. Simons party was awesome, it was so cliched. he's so innocent gosh. there were like signs in the house pointing to toilets, and boys and girls changerooms hahaha, it made me lol... but nonetheless, that man is nice. I wish I was as nice. I talked to so many people Id forgotton about! anyway afterwards a few of us went to the beach, kelsey and jimmy were flirting all night jesus christ. its not like I actually care, he has a girlfriend, and I dated kelseys sister, its not like im jealous? but Im not sure, maybe just protective or something. weird! actually I know thats what it is, she is my sister essentially. I love her like that anyway. and Jimmy is amazing, such a good man. and then us blokes had this massive Deep and Meaningful. mainly about politics, anarchy, all that. but still! I love talking about actual stuff, I hate smalltalk. tomorrow should be good. :) Peace the Fuck Out

i feel like writing a song usually theyre quite depressing but lately theyve been... happyish? -one I wrote about a week ago. SONGBIRD no more seasons no more crime dried up feelings no more time say goodbye to starlight its getting dark a deconversion of your heart as we walk on empty hearted and the songbird cant be heard I am like all men slowly dying but unlike most alive. no more sadness no more love i beg of you universe please stop say goodnight to this life you're starting fresh the songbird will sing again dont you fret

today on the bus... I was just looking at my hands and no I wasnt high -_- but, I realised, epiphonised you could say. That i'm made of stars!!!!!!! :O We all came from that one star that exploded, the big bang. And our matter is recycled. the matter that makes up my hands, may have been the same matter that made up some awesome polar bear 5000 years ago. random O_o but polar bears are pretty awesome. Im going to oscars now.............

empathy, I could say its what I'm best at, I'd probably be lying but I still wonder, is Simon happy? He doesnt care about fashion, I mean he wears sneakers everywhere. Why do I care so much? He doesnt have many friends, his parents are controlling - of which I feel great indignation for. How can he be happy? yet he appears happy. and then it hit me. the whole thing about "reason equals virtue equals happiness". He is virtuous! He doesn't drink, he doesn't swear, he doesn't really do anything wrong. he is the definition of happy. but I'm still thinking about this some more... and the party will be awesomtastic! its going to be hot, which I love! I'm happy, I think I am. In comparison to other times, yeah sure. It took a while to get over her, now I barely think about it, which is good. I really am sick of all this 'bushwa' relationship stuff. Not the actual relationship, but the lead up, the break up, all that shit that for some reason has to be formal and theres like rules you have to follow like... wtf, why cant it just be simple?!?! and the fact that girls still go for looks, it doesnt exactly anger me, because honestly, I dont want a girl who would choose me based on my appearance. its not like im ugly, nor incredibly hot, nonetheless, it shouldnt be about that. looks are inherent, you dont earn them. what do you earn? what can you earn, to be a good lover? honesty? virtue? I dont know, I dont care to know either. all I know is that I want to treat a girl right like she deserves thats all Peace the Fuck Out

well Lulu said I should start blogging, I thought it would be a good idea. So here it is, my first ever blog! Yesterday was fucking fun. The picnic was a fantasticle idea, im thinking we should do that more often. There wernt many others there, so oscar could smoke his massive blunt... -_- I didnt want to smoke, not only because I was driving, but it just fucks up my head for months afterwards. but anyway, it was good, I met Dot a really nice girl :) and jacinta who I'd met before but didnt really know her that well. So they and Lulu left and we decided to go to Jamies house, problem was we only had 5 seats, and 6 people... so jimmy squished in and we dropped him off at his house to get a ride down. hahaha We stopped at Glenelg so Lian could get a bottle of Southern Comfort mmmmmmmmm. Then we went to Jamies. AND THISs is where it got soooo bad... I learnt a good lesson, dont drink and exercise! We walked from Marino to Marion. My stomach felt like it was going to implode. And all so Barney could talk to his bitch girlfriend, and they didnt even break up WTF. Shes a bitch clearly. My own personal opinion on the situation is this: Shes really clingy, hes more laid back. The two values are incompatible. And Barney can't ask Bec to change, you just cant do that. The problem is that Barney loves her, so its not so easy to tell her "we're not right for each other, we need to break up". He should have done that a few weeks into the relationship which is what I would have done. It may seem harsh to dump someone because of something like that, but its a pretty important value. I mean, I dumped a girl called Ally on the first date, as soon as she said "yeah this guy gave me some acid last night! it was great!" I was fucking out of there! Because she had this value 'health isnt important to me' and my value is the complete opposite. So it wasnt that I think shes immoral, or a bad person, shes just incompatible with ME. So you get my point, don't continue the relationship any furthur than a few weeks if you see somethings not right. but it was ok once we got home on the train, oscar and rachel left, we just hung out at jamies house. I was drunk enough to get the guitar out and start playing some of my songs... Which apparantly wernt too bad, despite the slurring and out of tune strings. hehe Fell asleep at about 5, jimmy gave in and now his polyphasic thing's probably fucked. I woke up at about 10, decided I'd drive home, albeit I wasnt sure if the alcohol was still in my system? Maybe... not sure but I made it home safely anyway. Said hello to mum and benny, then went and fell asleep on my bed listening to the whole City and Colour discography. was amazing! and now I'm here! think Lian wants to go the Marion tonight, Crawford said there were $10 shirts at Cotton On, that would be sweet! Peace the Fuck Out.