Dear Peter, Is this the end of the moment or just a beautiful unfolding Of a love that will never be or maybe be Everything that I never thought could happen or ever come to pass and I wonder If maybe, maybe I could be all you ever dreamed... cause you are; Beautiful inside...so lovely and I can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are. And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you Is this a natural feeling or is it just me bleeding? All my thoughts and dreams in hope that you will be with me or Is this a moment to remember or just a cold day in December, I wonder If maybe, maybe I could be all you ever dreamed cause you are Beautiful inside, so lovely and I can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you Is this the end of the moment or just a beautiful unfolding of a love that will never be for you and me Cause you are You're beautiful inside, you're so lovely and I can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you i love you.

im starting over. i can't even look at you, really. last month, i decided to gauge my ears. my (best) friends mom disapproves, she made that perfectly clear. i guess it wouldn't matter so much, if she weren't like my real mom, and i weren't at their house or hanging out with them all the time. but who am i anymore? she thought i dyed my hair, which i did... about a month ago. she asked where i had been.. where have i been? oh, you know.. your daughters horrible boyfriend is home on leave. and do you think she pays any mind to me? nah. oh, she even told me the day before he came back how much more i mean to her than him.. yeah, sweet.. isn't it? but oh, it gets better. tuesday, when we were supposed to hang out.. nothing. no text, just some lame excuse because she "thought i didn't wanna go anymore".. really? you blew me off for.. him? HIM? wow.. wait until he goes back to the military in a few days again.. and you wont see him for another two years. we've spent the passed almost year together, you and i. best friends? what an understatement. but oh, how quick you are to give that all away for a boyfriend. i hope when he leaves you dont remember my number, or my name. cause i wont be here, not after everything you've done. and yesterday? i wasn't sick.. and no, my brother wasn't coming to pick me up.. it was you. you hurt me. acting like i wasn't there, or atleast you didn't want me there. i hate that fake face you always do. i tried to reach out to him, even though i've told you you deserve so much more. i tried, i tried for you.. why? because you told me thats what best friends do. then.. when we're out with your mom and your boyfriend and you treat me like that? .... i hope he gives you everything i want, and by that i mean i hope he keeps buying you expensive gifts because obviously he can buy your love. i guess i didn't really know you, or maybe.. i hate what you've become, or what he made you. i hope you're happy now. i hope you're really happy.