i love the world :) :D

i havent talked to him or seen him in so long and i cant unless he gets online, i dont know what to do i said before that i shouldnt like him because i hardly ever see him and being stupid and optimistic like i am, i just didnt care about that but now it makes sense, i shouldnt like him but i wont be able to stop, and i definitely dont want to. its crazy i just have to stay sane for 16 more days [possibly sooner but i cant get my hopes up] just 16 fucking days. i think i can do it. but you never know especially when im at home all day tomorrow i wont be alone. the next days christmas so that wont work, plus all the stores will be closed anyways saturday im going shopping so sunday is ur first chance to get monsters :) idk even if we might do something then but its okay. it'll work out. i just have to keep breathing...deep breaths it'll be okay i just have to keep hoping