So I'm working on my self portrait right about now, doing my hair and taking it easy. I'm also talking to Ariyan (like I do every other minute) over text. I have a strong feeling he'll ask me out on Friday during field day. Oh, joy! And he made an instrumental and dedicated it to me. :)

You know, knowing that you have the ability to make someone happy is a really good feeling. It kinda makes you happy too. And, meat didn't gross me out before. I mean, the smell. Now, the smell of cooked/raw/cooking/spoiled/bloody/meaty/etc meat makes me gag and I get a strange feeling. I always thought it was stupid when vegetarians mentioned this happened to them, but, it's true. :&

I'm texting Ariyan and he's really really really [good thing]. I don't know how to describe it, but he's just [good thing]. Ha "have I ever told you?" "told me what?" "That you're really pretty" hm. He just makes my heart quivery and my fingers clumsy. I want to touch the real him, I want to feel his warmth. I hope he doesn't shy up then. Ha I've noticed he loosens up a lot when we talk in Spanish. Which we do occassionally. Anyway, this goddamn thing is acting weird for some reason so I'm only able to write in my iPod. :& I went to the fair with Michi yesterday and her godsiblings were there too and it was a lot of fun. Ha her godbrother was hilarious and wild and crazy. Then the day before yesterday I went to Marco island with my patens and Carolina and she was suckig up to them like there ws not tomorrow :&

I'm waiting for my parents to be ready to go. We're heading to the other coast of Florida and we're taking Carolina. And Ariyan is not in architecture, he's in ID. "If we suddenly fall, should I scream out?"

I went to whole foods with my mom yesterday and picked upsome yummy stuff. Then we went to target and then we went to jamba juice. I got peach pleasure or whatever in power size. I've been talking to Ariyan everyday and he's really cool. Loves the red hot chili peppers. Wayy more than I do/did. We share music. Talk about stuff like regular people do. He told me he liked talking to me this morning, and that kept me smiling for, like, 15 minutes. But why? I mean, do I, like, like him?? Ah I don't know I don't know I do know I don't know. It's been five days and I can't possibly like him this fast! Why why why do I like guys so easy? But not really 'cause Miguel from last yr just asked me to be his girlfriend and lol I said no. "relax, yes, I'm trying, but fear's got a hold of me" anyway, last night I dreamt that raymosnd and I were a thing and had sex and held hands and everything. He had Lawrences body but it was raymonds face and hair. Haha strange. "I can be as cruel as you, fighting fire with firewood"