That's a Conor line I really like. I have to look up what song it's from, though. Now. I just recently got to the hotel in LA. It's quite nice. It's clean and pretty. I have internet here, hooooooray! It's a Four Points by Sheraton. So, I'm sick! I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick. :/ I have a sore throat and Janie-cold symptoms. We woke up today and met a nice young lady that my dad was secretly flirting with. Then we went to the crookedest street in the world -BS- and walked to Alcatraz -which I like to call Azkaban, it's just cooler-. My dad just wanted to do it all again 'cause, last time, he didn't get to listen to the audio tapes! But that was okay 'cause I love him. Just kidding! lol, jk. I've been doing that to them so much lately. It's actually kinda fun. I lean in to cheek-kiss them and the lean in and I withdraw -haha- right before and say, "just kidding!" haha it's fun. Or when I mention I love them and they say they love me back, I say, "just kidding." Holy fuck, ok. Enough with this. On our way to Azkaban, we saw a group of three siblings doing stunts and gymnastics things. They were British and the main guy was actually a high 8. He was funny and I really liked, "No need to fear, we're professionals. That's why we work in the streets." I felt sympathy for them 'cause they were trying. We went to the jail and I got more sick. Then we walked all the way back to our rented car 'cause the line for the bus thing was too long. But the streets in Frisco aren't normal. They're super steep. And I had sandals on. So we were done and went to Goldie as soon as we got in the car. We walked the gate and there was people surfing. Surfing! Maybe they just wanted attention. Or maybe they were really into surfing by the rocks under the Golden Gate Bridge in 58 degrees water. But that's fine and none of my business. It was warmer today than the other days, but it's usually really, really cold. Atleast for me, a Miamian. lol. And then I fell asleep with a, "me voy a dormir," and my dad responding, "Oh, okay, que te vaya bien." haha. I thought that was kinda cool. When I woke up, we were at the airport and the world was falling apart. I hadn't eaten and neither had my parents so we hunted for food. I found a Laurie's Diner and a sushi place but the sushi didn't look fresh so I had Laurie. A veggie burger. They have a lot of veg options here in Cali. I think it's great. People recycle and people care. My parents ate at Friday's. We hurried into our gate and boarded. We were in that airplane for an hour but it went by quickly, even though very uncomfortable. For some really odd reason, I always get sick when I travel. New York, Colombia, and Now Here. Must be something with the airplanes. We got picked up by a white van and went to get our car. It was a tiny, ghost town place. Whatever. The car is kinda.. lol. We're returning it tomorrow for another one. So. I've been thinking that I want to write about two things now. 1. Today when we were getting near LA in our airplane and I was looking down at all the tiny blocks moving along the streets, I thouht about that again. But I think about it so much more here than usual in Miami. Everyone is going somewhere else and everyone is living and thinking and feeling something different. Maybe one of the cars I was looking at was driving to the hospital because their wife's water had just burst. Or maybe one of the drivers was high. Or maybe it was their birthday and were going to a birthday party they didn't even know about. Or maybe they were talking to their boyfriend in New Zealand. I feel stupid writing this but I don't feel stupid feeling it. 2. I forgot.

I've been dying to write! I've also been dying to listen to Chop Suey. I have the last part stuck in my head. When he goes, like, "FATHER, father, I commend my spirit," or something alike. I have writen in Notepad because I couldn't write anywhere else. I don't have Internet. I know, I know, HELL. Which kinda proves me a nerd. But my dad bought Internet. We went to the California Academy of Sciences and the San Francisco Museum of Modern art yesterday. I liked floor number two the most. The other floors where nonsense. As for the science one, I liked the whole thing. But I looooovvvvved a tiny jellyfish area they had. On Sunday we went to some aquarium by the bay and their jellyfish area was larger and more informative. I took great pictures there. I wish I had a tripod. That was practical. Because moving subject + moving camera = not good. Sunday was a really long day. We woke up early and had complementary breakfast. Then catched a tourbus and went to the redwood tree thing. It was beautiful, trees everywhere. The air smelled of freshness. Maybe it's where Febreeze goes to get their scents. We also went to Sausalito. Which was awesome because, I think, Conor wrote about it. Awesome. Today's Haidy's birthday :) We ate at a burger place, it was okay. Then we went to Alcatraz, the contry's jail. jk, it wasn't bad or anything. Then we walked around and went to Hard Rock cafe -where I found an awesome free magazine which is totally Gaby's style so I'm giving one to Carolina and one to Gaby and keeping one. They're about bands and talk about T&S and Noah and the Whale and such. And the two guys from Once are actually a band. Who knew? I have to check them out ASAP- and then we ate at a fish restaurant. Then, finally, we went to the aquarium and this was probably my favorite part of the whole day. Yesterday wasn't as long. We went to the Science thing and the art museum. And then went to Chinatown where I wanted to eat at a vegan restaurant but, when we walked in, it smelled of pee. So we didn't. But we ate at a sushi place. It was okay except they were rushing us to leave. Asians are kinda rude sometimes. Not all of them. I bought a ceramic bowl with fishies inside and a corcoide -wahtever- fish to put on a necklace. I think that's cute. Except Sarah has something like that and she'll think I copied her. I really don't like Sara. Here's the stuff I'd written in Notepad. Hi! I'm at the ariport at the moment. It feels more real now. But it still kinda doesn't. It doesn't feel like I'm at the other end of the country. But, anyway, I am. We just ate Chili's To Go. I had a black bean burger substitute. I think it was called Old Timer or something redneck-ish. This morning was disaster. They were trying to wake me up and I can't just wake up unless I'm going to be late. And I wasn't going to. Because it was seven and our flight left at eleven. After I woke up and got ready, I went to look up some jelyfish stuff and learned about Irukadji jellyfish. They're located in the Northern coast of Australia -mostly- but now inhabit coasts of Florida and others thanks to Mr. globalwarming. i got the urge to look up "swimming with jellyfish" because everything exists in this world. And, actually, I did find a jellyfish lake in Palai or something. I think it's SO cool! I might go jellyfish swimming in the summer or sometime. I think that's really exciting. After I was done with my jellyfish research, I went into the taxi and got to the airport. When on our way to the airport, guess what song came up! It wsn't me by Shagy. Hahahaha I couldn't stop laughing. But it got kinda awkward with the lady driving after some time. When we were in the plane, we had the opportunity to view many amazing "landscapes". I kept on waking my mom pretending there was something marvelous out the window when there was, like, a tree. I could tell that she thought it was cute how excited I was and didn't get mad. I thought it was funny. But some things really were great. I'll post pictures later so you can see. Lawrence is in Kentucky. I like Lawrence. Except when he tries to be slick. I think it's so weird that Lawrence knows Lauren who is really good friends with William. Because we're all from totally and completely different places. I think Michelle's trying to copy my writing style. 'Cause I'm that cool. No, really. I think she is. Like, I read one of her entries that said "BAM", just like one of my older ronmascara entries. And now she tries to be funny. My funny. But it doesn't work because my sense of humor is one that is so difficult to understand. I really think that. Sometimes I even can't understand it. 7:36PM -earlier where I am-: I'm in the plane now. We're boarding to San Francisco! I'm kinda excited. Last time we soared up!, I didn't feel the "feeling". Haha. And I was kinda disappointed because I always get excited about that feeling :) I miss Chamo and Perla. Both of them. This morning, Chamo was kinda histerical about us us leaving. He would bark at us. I feel kinda bad about leaving him. I wish we could take him. I really don't know what to write about, except the small details. Like how my ears feel when we're up in the air. And how many Asians there are here. And how slowly the plane seems to go even though you know it's racing. 11:44PM Miami, 8:44PM Frisco: I'm in my room now. We got here not long ago. I'm drinking Pellegrino orange substance. It's alright. It just tastes expensive, but bitter. Like those ladies. Leah drinks this in large quantities. I actually tried it thanks to her for the first time. Now I'm addicted. just kidding. I've been thinking about my school friends a lot lately. I miss them. For some reason, I don't miss my bus friends. And I've also been thinking about William and that I have to get him a birthday present 'cause his birthday's next week. I don't know what to get him. Again. I left my cellphone at home. Okay, let me say that again. I didn't bring my cellphone. It makes a difference because "leaving" sounds like "forgetting". And I didn't forget it, I wanted to leave it 'cause I didn't think it would work. It didn't work when I went to NY, why would it work this time? But my parents' do work and I was kinda jealous. It's so COLD! I'm wearing my M&M world shirt, my Corteo hoodie, and my Mariah jacket. And my $2 gloves. Unreal! I'm still kinda cold. I had to switch from my sandals to my remixed Pumas. I'm gonna go eat now! By. Above, we ended up eating at a greek restaurant accross my hotel. It was delicious. Very clver/Delish/To die for!

I have my Iowa cousins over. They're my mom's cousins so I don't know if you call it grand-cousins or what. Viva la Vida is playing on the radio. Which reminds me of Lawrence. And, talking about Lawrence, I've been talking to him tonight. Him: Merry christmas my love 9:32 PM 12/25/09 me: Hey merry christmas ;) him:Can you call me 9:45PM me:Hey him:I want to talk to you me: Talk to me him: i do miss you and i wish you didnt have a boyfriend me: Why do you wish that? him: Because i love hanging out with you me:we can hang out him: No everytime we hangout we hookup.im sorry i dont want to ruine anything in your life but we have a history and i miss you babe me: We hook up because you know what to say so we hook up. And thats okay because i like to be with you too. But i really like him and im not gonna cheat on him. him: So we can hook up next time we hang out him: If i say the right things me: haha him: Why did you send that me: Because youre funny saying that. Lawrence you dont have to trick me or anything. I know you dont love me. And thats okay. me: Im not trying to trick you i do miss you and i do like hooking up with you and i do love you and always have janie.im not trying to trick you!! me: If you loved me youd want more than just hook ups. him: I do! me: NO you dont. him: I love hooking up with you but i do want more just eating you out and you sucking me up. me: Yeah you want to fuck me. Thats still hooking up. him: me: What. him: Yes that would be amazing but one you probably wont let me fuck you and two i dont want to push anything me: Ok. him: Would you let me fuck you me: No, im still a virgin lawrence. him: Ok so back to my original question then.i miss you me: Okay, whats up? him:call me me:Im with my family now. Theyre from iowa haha. him: O ok whats up with wat me: With you. Watre you up to? and that's it. Larence drives me up the wall. He's so FRESH! Ugh.

I ended up receiving more presents than the ones I mentioned. I also got a set of watercolor pencils, a set of charcoal pencils -which we're returning 'cause the quality's not that good-, a giant teddy bear, and classic crystal stud earrings. Today's Mariah's birthday! Her mom's picking me up for the barbeque. Yay :) I'm doing a project for english class. We had to design a flag for Animal Farm. ehh. My top two latest bands: 1)The Maccabees. 2)The Weakerthans. I like them. Obviously. William and I were talking earlier and he said, "don't forget about me eh" and I said, "i'll wear the necklace you gave me so you feel closer" and he smiled. and i smiled. He was talking about my California trip. I just finished packing recently. I don't know why, but I'm not that thrilled and excited about the trip as I'd think I'd would. And my parents haven't planned much that I know of. It doesn't feel like tomorrow I'm really going to wake up and go to the airport. It doesn't feel real. My nails have turned yellow from wearing too much nail polish without a condom. I mean, base coat. lol. I just thought: base coat > protection > condom my mind does that sometimes. In which I think of something that makes me thing of something else and I say the something else. But it happens in a matter of seconds, so sometimes I say the somethingelse instead of the something. Heh. This time that didn't happen, though. 'Cause I'm thinking about what I'm writing.

You know, I really like Anthem In. They're from FreeIndie. They sound a lot like Bloc Party. Nice. I also discovered Bat for Lashes recently. They're alright. Reminds me of Tegan and Sara somehow. Even though I really like T&S. Bat for Lashes is a little too girly. Also reminds me of Cake Bake Betty. Even though I like Cake Bake Betty. Hehe. We ended up not going to the Christmas party. Thank goodness. We were supposed to watch HP6 because my dad hasn't watched it but my mom falls asleep when she watches HP. And, if she falls asleep, that means we might never be able to open the presents. Dang, Aqualung sounds pretty great also. I don't know how I end up with all these good bands in my library. Hey, library. I think it's weird how this word has comed to mean music apart from books. Even though there's CD's and movies at libraries nowadays. "I'm so sick, so sick of just always dreaming" "you're who I wanna wake up to every morning" Let's get Married by Archie Star. Oh! Another really great band is Two Door Cinema Club. Raul Recommended it to me. I really like it. It's electronic and graphical. I don't know what's up with me and why I'm writing all these choppy sentences. Sorry, Janie. I wonder what you're getting for Christmas. I'm getting Lola by Marc Jabobs, kitty necklace by Betsey Johnson, Juicy Couture bow earrings, JC necklace, and an ugly bracelet. How I know all this? We usually keep our wrapping paper in that big green suitcase. This Christmas, my dad got a whole bunch of new rolls. I was wrapping my friends' presents and couldn't find the new rolls. So I retrieved to the suitcase. And there were the distinguishable Lola boxes. They were beautiful and purple. I jumped up and down and cried a high-pitched scream and my dogs looked at me weird. My parents weren't home. I decided I'd keep it on the low that I'd found them. But I couldn't. I simply couldn't. lol, that was a The Simpsons Movie reference, btw. Not that I like it but w.e. So I said to my mom, "I think you need to work on your gift-hiding skills," when she got home. She pretended she didn't know what I was talking about. Maybe she really didn't. But then she catched on and got mad at me for finding the presents! But how could I possibly know?! I wasn't snoopping or anything. Minding my own business I go, and happen to find the presents. I didn't even want to find them. Anyway, those are my parents'. William got me a necklace and a teddy bear. Michelle got me The Perks. Gaby got me that necklace ball thing. Mariah got me lots of love. lol, just kidding. She better get me something. And Leah forgot my present at home and my bus friends were getting it for me after the break because they wanted to get me "exotic" gifts since they were traveling. BS, I think. I think they just wanted to measure whatever I got them in order to know what they should get me. That's okay, though.

I found eight whole pages with pictures and everything in one of my old animal books. About jellyfish. 8 pages about jellyfish. I think I couldn't be happier. It's in spanish, so it won't have the same terminology as it'd have in english. William was going to get me a book about jellyfish but he couldn't find one. He says he'll find one eventually. He's so sweet :) Sometimes I think he's thrilled about having a girlfriend. Just to have a girlfriend. Doesn't matter if it's Janie or Jane or Jannet. Just a girl that likes him is fine. Is that it, William? I also think he thinks I'm conceited. Which I can't really argue to. But I don't want him to think that. I'm going to my neighbor's house next. I don't want to go. I just want to stay home with my parents and watch a Christmas movie or something. Just us. I took a shower and washed my hair. I got dressed and looked in the mirror. I'm starting to look more and more like mom. Maybe it's the jeans. Or the hair. But I am. That's not bad. But it's not good either. I'm watching TV, something I hadn't done in a very long time. Last time, it probably was The Soup. It's Nickelodeon now, Nick@nite. Gay. They're showing some corny Christmas movie and make it sound hot. lol. yeah.

So, I'd like to point out one of my coolest genuine phrases: Precipitation in my bedroom. Nothing is more perfect than that, I think. It's so beautiful and dreamy. Anyway, I need to write about two things now. 1. William said the cutest thing yesterday. He was being extra funny/clever/playful/witty/flirty last night. Anyway: Me- I know :) Maybe I should make it more than one day. Or ill do this and do it everyday in the summer. That sounds good. Him- Ill keep you to that then :) um yea that souns like a plan anyways homework wont be letting up so its probably t wait tillsummer. I on the other hand dont think i have plans for my last summer here. Me- Do something you wouldnt be able to do over there Him- Any suggestions? Me- Learn how to surf Him- That works. I know what i cant do over there. Hang with you :) awwwwwww! That is so cutttttttte. AnyWAY, 2. I had a dream last night but I don't remember much. I just had a flashback, though. Like when you take LSD, you know? I just read this, though. So I don't know. Anyway, my dad had died so my mom was cancelling our trip to Californa. We were at the front desk thing at the airport and my mom was booking us in or something. The guy informed us that Denis was dead, to which my mom responded, "Oh. Then, no. We can't fly without him." I remember thinking or asking outloud, "Why not, mom?" Lately, people have been dying in my dreams. Like, Mariah. And dad. Things like that. When Mariah died at the metro station, I was sobbing. I was sobbing. Not Janie in the dream, Janie in real life. Mariah and I went for ice cream last night at nine and then her parents went to Winn Dixie while me and Mariah talked in the car. It was a pre-birthday thing. They thought I'd be away tomorrow. Tomorrow's her birthday and we're going to a barbeque. I have to buy her her present. I gave her a blue jacket from Forever21 as one of the gifts. I'm getting her headphones as the other gift. Michelle got me The Perks of Being a Wallflower for Christmas yesterday. I love that book. I still have to get her something but, if all else fails, I'll get her the Pink scrub I got for emergencies. Michelle has a blog. http://www.ihaveapencilandiknowhowtouseit.tumblr.com

I spent the day with Michelle. I picked her up at her dad's Subway and went to Pembroke Pines mall. My mom was shopping for Cary's and Oscar's Christmas presents. Michelle and I were kinda just dawdling around. We got churros and I got a pink eyeliner at Hot Topic. I discovered some chonga store which had all types of eyeliner colors. I was thrilled. Michelle and I also discussed my boyfriend's sexual orientation. William's. I'm listening to RHCP now, LOVE! It's just so unstable. I can't help the feeling he's gay. Or bi. Strike one- He talks about how one of his friends tried to hit on him in junior year. Strike two- He talks about how guys check him out and hit on him at the gym. Strike three- He brags about his clothes size - XS. Strike four- His favorite store is Aeropostale. Strike five- He loves to cook. Strike six- He liked that sparkly shirt from Old Navy I wore the other day. Strike seven- He notices the color eyeliner I wear. Strike eight- He talks about the awkward positions in gym when they do yoga. Strike nine- He's obsessed with his physical appearance. I'm sure this list will grow. But, if he's not straight, I think it won't matter and we'll still be able to be great friends. Then I came home and did geometry and english stuff. O, I'm getting new glasses. My soulmates broke and they were limited edition or something.

I don't think I mentioned the British accent I've developed. It was inspired by HP6 movie. I love Harry Potter! I'm going to VisionWorks today to get my brand new glasses. We're going to pick up Michelle at around 10. I like Michelle. She laughs at my jokes. Haha. Like, even when I'm not saying something funny, she thinks I'm funny. But something fun happened yesterday as I was doing my white laundry. I shouted, "Get in there, you white cloths!" as I threw them in. I couldn't stop laughing 'cause it sounds racist but they're-- clothes. lol. I bought some sushi erasers last Sat. They're too cool. Well, who would've known? They're from UO. $7.00, though. They're really well made, actually. Lovely quality. Don't streak. What is this, me advertising my favorite store? You could call it that but w.e. I gave one to Raul and one to William. William's friend wanted one and I was gonna give her the gray eel one but I forgot. I used to feel more comfortable writing here. Like, more like myself. I guess it just needs time. I'm still not done with Geometry! But I will be, should be. K, gotta go now. O and for my old journal, type in ronmascara on google. You'll find me eventually.

Sometimes I get this feeling like I'm a loner. Like I have nothing to do. I didn't get this back in 8th grade 'cause it was Gaby, Mariah, and me. But now.. It's not. And I can't find that quality of people here at DASH. Except William but he's my boyfriend, so it doesn't really count. "yes I think you're sticking with me now 'cause I'm all you've got" I feel it now because it feels like a Saturday and I've got nothing to do. And none of the people I know call me to be with me. Bright Eyes makes me company, though. I love Conor.