Greatest Enemy
by wings718 on December 23, 2009When the world is against you
What can you do but lash out?
When they’re making you feel
Like you can’t hit the mark,
I feel the need to scream and to shout.
I’m just trying to protect myself from
Every other shark in the sea
I try to be the biggest
But when I conquer all my enemies
The last one left
Is always me.
They can’t see,
They don’t know
Because I hide it from them.
Would never
Let it show
That I am vulnerable.
It’s the mask
That I wear
Only to protect myself.
Oh, I try
All the time
I have to prove to myself-
Have to prove,
Must be true,
I am not vulnerable .
I’m not weak,
Can’t touch me,
The only way to feel safe.
When the world is against you
What can you do but lash out?
When they’re making you feel
Like you can’t hit the mark,
I feel the need to scream and to shout.
I’m just trying to protect myself from
Every other shark in the sea
I try to be the biggest
But when I conquer all my enemies
The last one left
Is always me.
So I yell
So I rant
And they’re hating me for it.
I can’t stop,
Addicted,
To this way that I live.
I don’t know
Anything
Other than shielding me so.
Yeah, I try
All the time
Have to protect myself—
Must protect,
I expect,
I am not vulnerable.
I’m not weak,
Can’t touch me,
The only way to feel safe.
When the world is against you
What can you do but lash out?
When they’re making you feel
Like you can’t hit the mark,
I feel the need to scream and to shout.
I’m just trying to protect myself from
Every other shark in the sea
So I try to be the biggest
But when I conquer all my enemies
The last one left
Is always me.
It is not
Not my fault,
I am trying to show me
That I can
Pass my test
Perfection is what I expect.
Have you lived
In this way,
Always disappointing yourself?
And so I
Cannot cry
Despite all the pain inside.
Have to prove
To myself,
I am not vulnerable.
I need to
Protect me,
I can and will not be weak.
I’m not weak,
Can’t touch me,
The only way to feel safe.
I don’t want
To live this way.
I feel trapped,
I’m stuck in place.
I don’t want,
To hurt people.
But I can’t
Let my guard down.
No I can’t,
Let them inside.
So I hold,
On to my pride.
I need to
Convince myself
It’s okay
For me to need help.
But for now
I’ll break myself
I expect
The impossible
Feel awful
When I will fail.
If only
I could show you
All I want
Is to be free,
Free of this
Yearn to be strong
That causes
Me to be weak.
But I don’t
Have the strength
To show them
Any weakness.
I will keep l
Living this lie
And they won’t
Know my story
I’ve grown so
Good at this game,
But the truth:
I’m bound to lose.
Everything
In that I do
I am bound to lose.
I just need
To win for once.
But I can’t
Until I prove,
Not that I
Am safe or strong
But that I
Can show my heart.
When it’s you who’s against you
What can you do but lash out?
When I’m making me feel
Like I can’t hit the mark,
I feel the need to scream and to shout.
I’m just trying to protect myself from
Every other shark in the sea
I try to be the biggest
But when I conquer all my enemies
The last one left
Is always me.
My greatest enemy
Will always be
Me.
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