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  • Greatest Enemy

    by wings718 on December 23, 2009
    When the world is against you What can you do but lash out? When they’re making you feel Like you can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. They can’t see, They don’t know Because I hide it from them. Would never Let it show That I am vulnerable. It’s the mask That I wear Only to protect myself. Oh, I try All the time I have to prove to myself- Have to prove, Must be true, I am not vulnerable . I’m not weak, Can’t touch me, The only way to feel safe. When the world is against you What can you do but lash out? When they’re making you feel Like you can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. So I yell So I rant And they’re hating me for it. I can’t stop, Addicted, To this way that I live. I don’t know Anything Other than shielding me so. Yeah, I try All the time Have to protect myself— Must protect, I expect, I am not vulnerable. I’m not weak, Can’t touch me, The only way to feel safe. When the world is against you What can you do but lash out? When they’re making you feel Like you can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea So I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. It is not Not my fault, I am trying to show me That I can Pass my test Perfection is what I expect. Have you lived In this way, Always disappointing yourself? And so I Cannot cry Despite all the pain inside. Have to prove To myself, I am not vulnerable. I need to Protect me, I can and will not be weak. I’m not weak, Can’t touch me, The only way to feel safe. I don’t want To live this way. I feel trapped, I’m stuck in place. I don’t want, To hurt people. But I can’t Let my guard down. No I can’t, Let them inside. So I hold, On to my pride. I need to Convince myself It’s okay For me to need help. But for now I’ll break myself I expect The impossible Feel awful When I will fail. If only I could show you All I want Is to be free, Free of this Yearn to be strong That causes Me to be weak. But I don’t Have the strength To show them Any weakness. I will keep l Living this lie And they won’t Know my story I’ve grown so Good at this game, But the truth: I’m bound to lose. Everything In that I do I am bound to lose. I just need To win for once. But I can’t Until I prove, Not that I Am safe or strong But that I Can show my heart. When it’s you who’s against you What can you do but lash out? When I’m making me feel Like I can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. My greatest enemy Will always be Me.
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  • I Believe In Love

    by wings718 on December 20, 2009
    If I believe in anything I believe in love. Though it can be scary, baby, And our times have been tough. So we ain’t the best at this The last thing I’d do- is give up. Like I said, I believe in love. I was afraid Of falling out of love with you Cuz I grew to be Completely centered on you. I had to learn, To let things happen, so, so they would Had to accept, I don’t know where I’d be without you. Gave you my heart, You could do whatever with it— And that’s a scary place. If I believe in anything I believe in love. Though it can be scary, baby, And our times have been tough. So we ain’t the best at this The last thing I’d do- is give up. Like I said, I believe in love. You were afraid Of falling into love with me Cuz you didn’t know This kind of thing could happen to you. You had to learn, How to trust what you feel, what you feel Had to accept, Love has always been about the risks. You know the pain, You had felt nothing worse before, And that’s a scary place. Scary place, It is okay to be afraid. Hold my hand, I’m making a promise to you. I will fight, I want our love to be alive. I will fight, I’m telling you it will survive. Take my hand, I can only do this with you. Oh my love I am going to take this risk. Oh my love, Cuz I love you, and you’re worth it. You’re worth it, And I believe we can make it. I believe, I believe in us and our love. If I believe in anything I believe in love. Though it can be scary, baby, And our times have been tough. So we ain’t the best at this The last thing I’d do- is give up. Like I said, I believe in love.
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