People say the seasons change, Then they wish their life away. Seems a tragedy to me, Things we force ourselves to see. But the seasons are the same, ‘Tis a pity, ‘tis a shame. Winter, spring, summer, then fall, Thousand years won’t change at all. And I of all believe in hope, Nothing’s sure, we never know. But false hope will break you most, Dreaming’s dangerous, just know. There are things that never change, That are driving me insane. Somebody just tell me when Spring comes after autumn’s end. ‘Cuz orbits keep us going And keep planets in their place, But really they are ruts That are burning holes through space. I keep looking for a change, But I find nothing to find, It seems I’m stuck and can’t change The way the stars are aligned. I do believe in changing And of course in the saving, There’s changing for the better But some are just forgetters. They just won’t keep what they learn, So fly away, if it hurts. As for me I’m chained to hope, Living in the “I don’t know.” Does he love me, do care? Waiting for an answer here. Just like waves that never cease, He keeps pushing, pulling me. Unless someone shoots the moon, I’ll be stuck here in my doom. Must be useless to believe, Ocean waves someday will cease. ‘Cuz orbits keep us going And keep planets in their place, But really they are ruts That are burning holes through space. I keep looking for a change, But I find nothing to find It seems I’m stuck and can’t change The way the stars are aligned. Maybe I can’t sway his heart. Maybe I want a new start. I just wish I knew where he stands, Things are wrong but they’re not damned. Stars have their dreams I have mine, Loving him my whole damn life. I’m not walking out this door, I know nothing is for sure. Just take time soon he will see. He’s the perfect one for me. I’m too scared right now to know, But I’ll gain strength down the road. ‘Cuz orbits keep us going And keep planets in their place, I’ll travel these circles If that’s what it’s gonna take. I keep looking for a change, Someday he’ll see all my light, It seems I’m here and can wait For the day the stars are aligned. As for you, staying is strong, But you know this love is wrong. He just isn’t worth the pain, Perhaps after he can change. Misery to make him see, Sad, if that’s what has to be. Your wish is the same as mine, Make him happy, see him smile. But my pain’s from only me, It’s my choice to love him, see. And I know you want to stay, You can’t leave him in this state. But you must protect yourself, It’s not weak, he needs real help. You carry scars from his fists, Don’t let this go on, stop this. You must heal your own wounds first, Stars don’t like to see you hurt. Stars alight the sky we see, Path of hope to what will be. ‘Cuz orbits keep us going And keep planets in their place, Your heart is strong and true, Find the one that deserves you. Keep looking for a change, Someday you’ll find someone right, It seems you’re strong and can hope For the day the stars are aligned.

I need my angel back, My angel keeps me strong. I need my angel back It’s been so long, so long. I need my angel back My angel makes me smile And I haven’t felt That happy in a while. This world is not kind, It has been pushing me down. I need my angel To help me up again now. This life is too much Sometimes for me on my own. That’s why I need my angel So I am not alone. I need my angel back, My angel keeps me strong. I need my angel back It’s been so long, so long. I need my angel back My angel makes me smile I haven’t felt That happy in a while. There’s no way I can Explain the feeling that I Feel when he is near I’m like a child, really. There’s no way I can Replace the freedom, the rush, The warmth that I get When in my angel’s presence. I need my angel back, My angel keeps me strong. I need my angel back It’s been so long, so long. I need my angel back My angel makes me smile I haven’t felt That happy in a while. How much more waiting? This awful separation. How long can I go? Where are answers to questions? Each day I wonder, Is he thinking of me too? Does he realize He’s the angel I love true? I need my angel back, My angel keeps me strong. I need my angel back It’s been so long, so long. I need my angel back My angel makes me smile I haven’t felt That happy in a while. This separation Is reaching for its close. What will happen then? I need to know, need to know. This separation Is becoming much too much… But for my angel, Nothing is ever enough… Nothing is ever enough.

Everyone’s walking away. Everyone’s leaving today. Don’t think they plan on returning They won’t come back from this journey. Turn their backs on those who need help. Guess it’s always about yourself. How do you feel on the inside When you can’t shake your useless pride? When the sun doesn’t shine Do we turn the lights off? And when we miss the train Do we just walk back home? Well not me anymore I’m done with cowardice But I just can’t escape This fear that’s within me. People who are different suffer. It is nothing short of torture. There are people scared of their home. You’re acting as if you don’t know. People who don’t what free is. Are you grateful for what you have? Who has time for sadness like that? Turn your back and never come back. When the sun doesn’t shine Do we turn the lights off? And when we miss the train Do we just walk back home? Well not me anymore I’m done with cowardice But I just can’t escape This fear that’s within me. We’re running from the light To find comfort in dark. Don’t you stay ignorant. Don’t you stay ignorant. When the sun doesn’t shine Do we turn the lights off? And when we miss the train Do we just walk back home? Well not me anymore I’m done with cowardice But I just can’t escape This fear that’s within me.

I don’t wanna be locked in this world I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be trapped in the dark I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be locked in sadness I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be trapped with Marie I want to have a window. These days Marie is taking over, There when I look over my shoulder. She’s suffocating me I can’t breathe, She won’t let go of me—I need free. Marie’s the enemy inside me, Tryin’ to drown me within her sea. She’s using water to be my end, Inside overflowing out again. She puts her hatred on me, It is her form of torture. But I will rise above it, I will be stronger for it. I don’t wanna be locked in this world I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be trapped in the dark I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be locked in sadness I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be trapped with Marie I want to have a window. I’m overwhelmed with all this sadness, Wishing for pain as my accomplice. Images of having flowing blood, To distract me from my missing love. But it’s all because of what she says. Marie’s voice, always inside my head. Tells me I’m alone in a dark place, Tells me all the time there’s no escape. She puts her hatred on me, It is her form of torture. But I will rise above it, I will be stronger for it. I don’t wanna be locked in this world I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be trapped in the dark I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be locked in sadness I want to have a window. I don’t wanna be trapped with Marie I want to have a window. She tells me that I am weak, I’m given all of her pain. But I can find a window. And I will break all these chains. She’s trying to bring me down, Her goal to make me lose hope. But I will never lose faith, Never, no, no, no! She has her weakness and fear, And she can try to break me. But there is love on my heart I know true love can save me! She put her hatred on me. It was her form of torture. But I have rised above it. And I am stronger for it. I am no longer locked in this world, I’ve found my love, my window. I am no longer trapped in the dark, I’ve found my love, my window. I am no longer locked in sadness I’ve found my love my window. But I will always remember Marie Her darkness is my story. Yeah I will always remember Marie And the pain that made me, me.

Ten million tear drops To keep me sane Ten million tear drops To prove I’m not in vain. Ten million tear drops To start the day. Ten million tear drops To prove that I’m okay. This pain is all I have, This pain is all that I am. This pain is what I need, But I really need a plan. I let the teardrops fall, It’s something I know is real. Making the teardrops fall Because I know there’s something here. Ten million tear drops To keep me sane Ten million tear drops To prove I’m not in vain. Ten million tear drops To start the day. Ten million tear drops To prove that I’m okay. My hope is all I have This hope is all that I am. This hope is what I need, But I need to understand. Feel like there’s nothing left But I refuse to let go. I will keep holding on Because this is all I know. Ten million tear drops To keep me sane Ten million tear drops To prove I’m not in vain (prove I’m not in vain). Ten million tear drops To start the day. Ten million tear drops To prove that I’m okay (yes, I am okay). My love is all I have, This love is all that I am. This love is what I need, Something on which I can stand. I gave away my heart, It was the choice that I made Opened myself to you I thought that I could be saved. But now The reasons for hope are fading But I will keep waiting My heart is still in need of saving. And now The reasons for me to go, grow. But I still say no. It’s the only thing my heart knows. Ten million tear drops To keep me sane Ten million tear drops To prove I’m not in vain. Ten million tear drops To start the day. Ten million tear drops To prove that I’m okay. When I know I’m not okay.

Insecure girl, Look at yourself. This isn’t who you are But it is what they see. Insecure girl, I know you’re hurt. Don’t deny you’re afraid You should learn it’s okay. Insecure girl, You hide behind How you’re angry and harsh, It’s all to keep them out. Insecure girl, Can’t be perfect. It’s driving you crazy Been blinding you lately. Oh, I know, I know, But they don’t, they don’t. Oh, you hate, you hate But only yourself. Cannons are your walls, It’s all in defense. If you only knew You wouldn’t believe. Oh, I know, I know. But they don’t, don’t. Cannons aimed at them But you just want to Hurt you. Desperate girl, Trying to prove Prove you really are strong That you are good enough. Desperate girl, Disappointed. Can’t meet your own demands So now you hate yourself. Desperate girl, Needs confidence, So she pretends to have To stop pain of her hate. Desperate girl, She has to win Whatever the cost is A reason to stop this. Oh, I know, I know, But they don’t, they don’t. Oh, you hate, you hate But only yourself. Cannons are your walls, It’s all in defense. If you only knew You wouldn’t believe. Oh, I know, I know. But they don’t, don’t. Cannons aimed at them But you just want to Hurt you. Very sad girl, Lives a cycle You can never escape The let down of failing. Very sad girl, Tries to rise up But pushes others down, Feels safe put above them. Very sad girl, Doesn’t know love She feels lost and confused What she feels is so new. Very sad girl, Wants and needs him. The first time she’s happy But dependence scares her. Oh, I know, I know, But they don’t, they don’t. Oh, you hate, you hate But only yourself. Cannons are your walls, It’s all in defense. If you only knew You wouldn’t believe. Oh, I know, I know. But they don’t, don’t. Cannons aimed at them But you just want to You just want to be strong So you aren’t so scared and vulnerable. Cannons are your protection But cannons can hurt more than you think. You just want to win this So that just maybe you’ll be worth something. Cannons are your allies But cannons got out of your control. Cannons want to hurt everything And everything is firing back But you don’t want to hurt them You just want to hurt you. You just want to hurt you.

When the world is against you What can you do but lash out? When they’re making you feel Like you can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. They can’t see, They don’t know Because I hide it from them. Would never Let it show That I am vulnerable. It’s the mask That I wear Only to protect myself. Oh, I try All the time I have to prove to myself- Have to prove, Must be true, I am not vulnerable . I’m not weak, Can’t touch me, The only way to feel safe. When the world is against you What can you do but lash out? When they’re making you feel Like you can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. So I yell So I rant And they’re hating me for it. I can’t stop, Addicted, To this way that I live. I don’t know Anything Other than shielding me so. Yeah, I try All the time Have to protect myself— Must protect, I expect, I am not vulnerable. I’m not weak, Can’t touch me, The only way to feel safe. When the world is against you What can you do but lash out? When they’re making you feel Like you can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea So I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. It is not Not my fault, I am trying to show me That I can Pass my test Perfection is what I expect. Have you lived In this way, Always disappointing yourself? And so I Cannot cry Despite all the pain inside. Have to prove To myself, I am not vulnerable. I need to Protect me, I can and will not be weak. I’m not weak, Can’t touch me, The only way to feel safe. I don’t want To live this way. I feel trapped, I’m stuck in place. I don’t want, To hurt people. But I can’t Let my guard down. No I can’t, Let them inside. So I hold, On to my pride. I need to Convince myself It’s okay For me to need help. But for now I’ll break myself I expect The impossible Feel awful When I will fail. If only I could show you All I want Is to be free, Free of this Yearn to be strong That causes Me to be weak. But I don’t Have the strength To show them Any weakness. I will keep l Living this lie And they won’t Know my story I’ve grown so Good at this game, But the truth: I’m bound to lose. Everything In that I do I am bound to lose. I just need To win for once. But I can’t Until I prove, Not that I Am safe or strong But that I Can show my heart. When it’s you who’s against you What can you do but lash out? When I’m making me feel Like I can’t hit the mark, I feel the need to scream and to shout. I’m just trying to protect myself from Every other shark in the sea I try to be the biggest But when I conquer all my enemies The last one left Is always me. My greatest enemy Will always be Me.

If I believe in anything I believe in love. Though it can be scary, baby, And our times have been tough. So we ain’t the best at this The last thing I’d do- is give up. Like I said, I believe in love. I was afraid Of falling out of love with you Cuz I grew to be Completely centered on you. I had to learn, To let things happen, so, so they would Had to accept, I don’t know where I’d be without you. Gave you my heart, You could do whatever with it— And that’s a scary place. If I believe in anything I believe in love. Though it can be scary, baby, And our times have been tough. So we ain’t the best at this The last thing I’d do- is give up. Like I said, I believe in love. You were afraid Of falling into love with me Cuz you didn’t know This kind of thing could happen to you. You had to learn, How to trust what you feel, what you feel Had to accept, Love has always been about the risks. You know the pain, You had felt nothing worse before, And that’s a scary place. Scary place, It is okay to be afraid. Hold my hand, I’m making a promise to you. I will fight, I want our love to be alive. I will fight, I’m telling you it will survive. Take my hand, I can only do this with you. Oh my love I am going to take this risk. Oh my love, Cuz I love you, and you’re worth it. You’re worth it, And I believe we can make it. I believe, I believe in us and our love. If I believe in anything I believe in love. Though it can be scary, baby, And our times have been tough. So we ain’t the best at this The last thing I’d do- is give up. Like I said, I believe in love.