I am always so worried that I'm not going to be able to stop you from going off that edge. and I try so hard, I really do. I couldn't even imagine my life without you and when you mention wanting to kill yourself I get so scared, that at times I start shaking, worrying, that you didn't reply... what has happened? what could have happened? knowing that you are okay though is such a relief. I love you, I can't have you leaving me, okay? I don't know what I'd do. anyway I just needed to get that off my chest, it's been stressing me out. but of course, I don't mind, I'm here for you always no matter what. nothing will get between you and I. nothing. try and sleep, try and forget. and always remember that I love you, hopefully that is something worth fighting for.