I spent two hours in bed with you. entirely alone. no interruptions, just you and I. l word. two hours. fucking. two hours. l word. yeah it was good. but I miss you now, and I'd like for you to come back, when do you think you can hunny? I love you (:

everything has gone BOLD. no idea why.

so it was a sausage fest. it was, there's not denying it. we were the only girls there and funnily enough, also like girls, so in turn it was pretty much a sausage fest. I snuck you kisses whenever possible and cuddled you the whole time, despite the others who were lingering around us. it had been two weeks, no, three weeks. so I took you around the corner of the house and pushed you against this rusty, green door that held a key in its lock. I opened it but there were spiderwebs and stuff, it wasn't exactly very welcoming so I closed it again and instead lifted you up against the door. I missed your kisses so much, on my ear, down my neck and on my chest towards my breasts. the little nibbling you continually do was driving me insane. I let you down again and you were saying how we should go back but in response I muted you with kisses on your lips and took your further down towards that gate. we kissed against a deck and I let my hands wander. too bad it was daylight, but we would make up for it later. I cheekily kissed your neck and tempted you and we went back to the pre-raging-party. even upon our return I couldn't help staying off of you. we had four hours together, actually three from that point on. I wasn't going to waste a moment and you looked absolutely gorgeous. so we went over to that swinging chair, those ones you normally put on a front porch and hugged and kissed and teased. everything was so lovely, it was slightly cold but that was a given, I mean it being near the sea 'n all. holding you in my arms on that chair... I never wanted to leave. except maybe for a warm bed in a home we could own. and so I had to pee... so I got up and went and you waited outside for me. (that sounds great, I'm sure.) as I went out I pulled you inside and I think for both of us it was a strong consideration to fuck in that bath then and there but jaimie walked in. it was alright though as he kindly led us outside... and that's where we'd stay for almost an hour. in that little alley way, and when we sat down and just laid there on something, what we didn't know, talking to oski, it was super cute. then we went back... chatted to some people, went crazy when we saw GCRM... sat back on that swinging chair which we rightfully called the love seat. a little later on, after jimi played ADTR we snuck around the side of the house with a blanket, along the way stripping so all we were wearing were our singlets and jeans. I wanted you so badly. and I had to convince you a little bit but it didn't take long for you to change your mind... I lingered on your breasts, as usual, biting you all over, just teasing you with my fingers until I'd go inside of you. you whispered in my ear, I'm sure you remember and when I heard you say those words, strung together in a sentence of breathlessness, I felt pure ecstasy rushing through my bones. I wasn't sure why but I fucking loved it. and I loved fucking you under the stars near the beach, it was absolutely beautiful. we laid there after with osk and jules, the french one was drunk as fuck but it was all good. talking with osk, as always, is fucking brilliant. it was an incredible night. which is enough said, really. lying there on that blanket, you on top of me, topless, holding each other so tightly because we knew that there'd be so little time left together. and never wanting to leave. it is easily one of the fondest memories I will ever have. I love you more than anything and anyone. never fucking doubt that.