so anyways, i met up with some of my friends today. and this guy i LUV was there. hes so CUTE. i want him so badly. only problem is that the first day we met, i really pissed HIM off. omgeeeeeeeee, right? he pretty much hates me. but i am totally FALLING for HIM. i dont know what to do. im so CONFUSED. what do you do when you are totally CRUSHING on a guy and he HATES your GUTS? if he wasnt so ADORABLE, i might not care. but he is just so AWESOME! if only he could see im not that BAD. but whatever. im going to a new school after this WEEK. so maybe i will FIND a NEW guy. i HOPE. because i dont want to HOLD on to HIM. but im afraid i might still WANT him. but i have to take ONE STEP at a TIME.

i have had the best week, i finally get to leave the school i hate and got to see some of my fav bands in concert on tuesday. i get to see all my old friends. i thought for a little bit, what if they want nothing to do with me anymore? so i thought, fuck that, i have my BEST friend there, she will never abandon me. plus if i have one good friend, i will be happy. maybe i wont dread school so much.