last day of ISS

Well i get to finally be in my own room with my own bed with my pics of everyone i care about... i still need to talk to my family and get all this crap cleared up. i dont know how its gonna go but im hoping and praying that they hear my words and finally understand me after 17 years of not understanding... Alli im doing this for u... I miss u when u go anywhere. Peace.

SUX FAT WEINER

Havent had a chance to call my family...its seriously stressing me out. I NEED TO CALL THEM AND CLEAR ALL THIS CRAP UP!!!!!! im starting to freak out...but i know in the end all of it will blow over. Im gonna have to put it in God's hands and let him take it over. ive been trying to do stuff on my own i guess and i kinda lost sight of what i really need to do. besides that i have the most AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL CRAZY AWESOME GORGEOUS UNEXPLAINABLE LOVEABLE GREAT SWEET CARING girlfriend ever... Alessandra Catherine English... She is my baby and i would do anything to to see her smile. Thanx to all my friends who have helped me... Nathan Young(I MISS U BUNCHES BRO!!!), Haley S(the shit), Dylan Kientzler(One of the coolest niggas ever), Kyle G(im so jealous that u can play guitar so frickin sweet like), Nicole P( everything will work out...dont worry) and anyone else i missed...u know who u are. LOVE PEACE AND CHICKEN GREASE

well... i didnt have a chance to call my family yesterday on the account that i was somewhere else where i people wouldnt let. hopefully i can today and clear some things up and apologize for what i said. i honestly feel really bad about what i said. two wrongs dont make a right...but maybe 3 do? just kidding. still...it doesnt give them the right to accuse my future mother-in-law like that. i wish that everything would just fall into place and everything can just be happy go lucky...i guess i should keep on wishing then cuz its probably not gonna happen. im gonna have to let reality sink in... im gonna have to work three times as hard for me and Alli if our relationship is gonna last. im gonna make the impossible possible and get thru my familys head that i WILL MAKE THIS WORK...

Well... i got to see my girlfriend last night and today so im REALLY ECSTATIC!!! she is the greatest person i know. I hate how i cant see her all the time tho. she always knows exactly what to say to cheer me up. she is never gonna leave my arms ever...even if she wanted me to let go, even if she said the things that make me want to lose her...but she wont so its ok. going to call my grandma today and see what the hell is up with not talking to Caela (Alli's mom). its so stupid. she does so much for me and alli and they dont even frickin realize it. do they know that she offered me a place to live after i graduate!?!?!? they are so blind to the truth and they act like stubborn jackasses. its like im the only one in my family that has patience. well its time to go and call...pray for me and wish me luck so i can get this all figured out.

Well my family says i cant talk to my girlfriends mom cuz they think she is a pedophile. WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM?!?!?!? CAN THEY NOT SEE I HAVE THE BEST RELATIONSHIP EVER AND THEY ARE RUINING IT??? MY FAMILY SAID THAT IF SHE TALKS TO ME THAT I CANT TALK TO ALLI EITHER... THEY CANT TELL ME WHO I CAN AND CANT SEE. IM MY OWN PERSON. THROUGH MOST OF MY LIFE MY FAMILY HAS TRIED TO BE THERE FOR ME BUT THEY COULDNT FOR REASONS THAT I WILL NOT EXPRESS...AND I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND. I DONT WANT TO DO THAT TO ANYBODY. I WANT TO GIVE THE ONE I LOVE ATTENTION AND AFFECTION THAT SHE NEEDS AND WANTS. I DONT WANT TO PUT HER THRU WHAT IVE BEEN THRU AT ALL.BUT MY FAMILY IS TRYING TO MAKE THAT HAPPEN...BUT I WONT LET IT. MY PURPOSE HERE ON EARTH IS TO BE A GOOD HUSBAND AND A GOOD FATHER. IM NOT GONNA LET MY FAMILY STEP INTO MY RELATIONSHIP. THEY CAN TRY TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO BUT IT WONT WORK... THIS IS UNJUST AND I WONT STAND FOR IT...THE AUDACITY... ANYWAYZ... I KNOW THAT MY ALLI IS IN LOVE WITH ME AND I AM IN LOVE WITH HER... THATS ALL THAT MATTERS FOR NOW. HER AND I...WE ARE INVINCIBLE. I CANT WAIT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HER BY MY SIDE.

Life is pretty shitty... ha i made a rhyme. ISS wasnt that bad but it still sucked. got all my word done tho. at least i dont have to hear the Gerber Baby talk shit and whine and talk shit some more. It gets annoying after awhile cuz their voice is so manly like and theyre supposed to be a girl... scary right? yeah. well i get to see my Girlfriend hopefully tonite or tomorrow so that should really make me HAPPY!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

ISS

My family hates my my girlfriends mom... i dont now why tho...my family is so uptight about a person who understands me and can help me with my problems. I just want to leave this place and move on with my life with Alli. The Best Thing is all i want to be with...I want to marry her and spend the rest of my life with her.